missing you...

dont know whats the title

2010-04-11T23:34:00.004+08:00

im currently waiting for my handphone to charge finish battery before i go to bed. :) wow. been studying my health psych textbook for 4 consecutive days i think. goshhh. *faints* at least i think i killed one hundred pages. another hundred pages to gooo!! when its 4th may, ill celebrate and jump around. and i definitely wanna movie marathon!! haha. okay. maybe ill wait till 5th may just for you. :)

watched green zone and it was AWESOME!! haha. think it was a good portrayal of the US and Iraq war.lol. really applaud the director for having the guts to write such a film. and matt damon totally killed the role! woooo. haha. i love conspiracy, gun action, twists and stuff. but of course i love my romantic comedies as well. :) just that those i would rather rent dvd, haha. cheaper. its those action flicks that you got to watch in the cinemas, it still beats home-based surround sound anytime! now the next show im anchoring for is SHUTTER ISLAND. yayyy!! another psychological thriller. watched the trailer and think its gonna be amazing. haha. damn excited.

these few days im super into shooting games at the arcade. haha. especially time crisis. i wanna become a good and accurate shooter!!! :) not like now, spend 10 bucks then only clear area 1. thats damn chuiiii. haha. after i become good in shooting and increase my spatial skills (research proven), im gonna go try paintball!!! haha. my only reservations is that it hurts when you get shoot. but ahh wells, its damn cool cause its totally mimic suspenseful real life stuff.

i realize you can earn quite a bit of money just participating in experiments carried out in nus. haha. i got 15 bucks from doing experiments this week. think im doing a 30 bucks one next week. that is if i get a confirmation email from them. *cross fingers*

ohhh and some good news : yayyy! i got the post of HR director of SAS!! haha. awesomeeee. :)

thanks for being part of my life. happy anniversary!! :)

longgg

2010-04-01T08:31:00.002+08:00

its been eons since ive blogged. haha. but i think facebook kinda totally throws blogs into oblivion. but since im waiting for my lecture to start at 9, and its too early to do any work (my brain haven work out), and i finished playing facebook therefore! i shall attempt to blog. haha.

TODAY IS APRIL FOOLS DAY!! i better be on my toes just in case. *coughs. even though we're so old, hahhaha. certain immature people still like to play pranks. tsk tsk!! * haha. today is a deciding day! im gonna receive my appeal results for my special term mod. gosh really hope i get it. so happy almost all presentations and projects are over. now i left my toy project and then i can happily just curl one corner and study for exams. rahh. think my target of 5A's this sem is like bye bye. cause of all the projects and reports that constitutes such a large percentage!! why cant large percentages be assigned to tests and exams instead? like that better. :(

I WANNA WATCH GREEN ZONE! haha. i absolutely loved bourne identity so i think ill like this too! hope i have the chance to watch it before it goes off screen. watched up in the air with shang. SUPER NICE!! ahha. made me think a lot! think its tons better than juno which was good. :) kinda made me re-evaluate myself as a potential psychologist and the whole non-hollywood ending was sad but refreshing. :)

just finished watching this korean drama "couple or trouble". i know its like long time ago but! haha. my mum recently bought it for me from malaysia. wooo. i really love the storyline!! i got addicted to it. haha. luckily it came at a not crunch time. dunno whether my self-control would hold against it. like that time playing phoenix wright. rahhh. haha. speaking of that, the latest edition is out! wooo. must scout for fabian.

this year gonna be a rampant 21st birthdays year. haha. my wallet is so going to burn a big hole. and because its 21st's, must think of extra special and nice presents. hmmmmmm. i hope someone is going to plan my party for me! the thought of having to plan the whole thing and coordinate everything just makes me scaredd. haha. i think its gonna take the fun out of it and the surprise cause its reallyyyy tiring. its like planning a mini wedding! lol :)

thursday nights i no longer have reggae lessons. its finished! goshhh. I LOVE THAT DANCE. haha. so sexy!! lol. i think ill pursue that style. but before i go learn higher levels of it, think i need to increase my flexibility. heh. :) quite ashamed to call myself and ex ballet dancer. haha.

okay! need to hurry to my class already. thank god in 2 weeks time, ill have no more irritating morning classes! next sem and forever, i wont be so stupid anymore. haha. no more extra early morning classes! earliest will be 10! yes.

new moon

2009-12-12T15:37:00.002+08:00

okay. new moon is actually not THAT BAD. haha. its fine la. i teared once. but overall i have no idea why people swoon over edward cullen. haha. hes totally not cute at all. no body and just ghostly. haha. i think hes lucky he got this role then can become like this famous. haha. the twilight love is just unhealthy la. but haha. the ending was quite funny because everybody in the theatre was like 'what?' haha. totally enjoyed thursday much! :)

ooh yesterday played mahjong at my place with han xian, jian rong and yumei. haha. lost terribly but it was fun! :) liked it. we should hang out more often. haha. called kfc delivery meal family combo i think. wah shiok. haha. damn unhealthy. i still cant believe one whole bottle of green tea like that gone. and within like 1.5 hours? thats superrr fast. haha. to think i thought can buy then stock to last me for like 3 days. hopes dashed. haha.

love you love you love you. :) thanks for everything.

updates

2009-12-10T00:15:00.002+08:00

wowww. superr long never blog already. haha. suddenly got the mood to blog even though its like 12.15am in the morning and i wanna wake up early tomorrow. hmm. well might as well since im still helping my dad transfer songs to his iphone. i wanna change the layout of my blog! haha. too emo. :) im a happy girl now. but! i have no idea how to do so. haha. being a tech idiot and all. blog skins are alien language to me. WHERE IS CHERYL? my dear blog-changer. haha.

REMIND ME NEVER TO SING K BOX 3 TIMES IN A WEEK EVER AGAIN! it is soooo tiring! haha. seriously, even with my extreme love for singing, this is overkill! haha. went top 1 with MS and peewee today. wah went crazy. haha. i miss singing with them man. the shi li pai, unique voice MS. the guy song, damn low, also shi li pai peewee and the emo, ku qiang me! ahha. just missing the cute best friend. :( lol. got lots of cannot see the daylight videos in my phone! gonna upload soon man!! hahahha. DAMN FUNNY. especially the one where peewee fell on MS. whahahhaha.

my second k box session was with sze ying, denise and diana! haha. loves! :) and my first one was with shang, yumei, HX and sean. lol. total clubbing session without the alcohol man. hahhaha. danced like mad. make my dancing bones itchy again. i wanna sign up for dance lessons soooonn!

picked up glory yesterday from the airport. the pseudo-flight. hahahah! it was a surprise although dunno why not as shocker as MS *coughs* getting *coughs*. YEAH. total shock. haha. its been a long time since the 7 of us plus hanger hung out together. it was fun! although DAMN EMBARASSING. haha. i have never had soo many people stare at me before, and for all the wrong reasons. hahah. HOW COME quiet me can become so good friends with very not so quiet MS and peewee? ahaha. we went sakae sushi to eat dinner. the service really sucked. super sloww!! but my teriyaki chicken after the damn long wait was good! :) not sure whether it really tasted good or because i simply waited too long. haha.

well its the hols! and my schedule is packed fully! yay! :) exams are over. and waiting for results which is coming out on the 22nd. hmm. think ill do better than last sem. *cross fingers* hopefully. :) wooo. my birthday coming!!!! haha. i went to library to borrow 10 books. 4 JD books which were good AS USUAL. haha. and the rest are psychology stuff. ohh damn exciting this book im reading, love and personality. its gonna change my life man. haha i know it!

gonna watch new moon tomorrow and hang out with shang! yay! :) probably mahjong on friday. ohh im upset that mafia wars is having problems. haha. people send me lots of gifts!!! rahh. i wanna accept and play! hmmph. lousy administrators. im such a dedicated player. haha.

yellow and orange lived happily ever after.

nuclear stuff

2009-10-01T15:23:00.002+08:00

I DONT WANNA RESEARCH ON NUCLEAR POWER ANYMORE!!! rahhh. 10 articles to find!! only found like 2 so far? and i have like some doubts about the whole issue. haha. once upon a time, i only knew about nuclear warfare, i didnt know about nuclear energy plants. now, haha. im reading about nuclear news almost every day. rahhh. US climate change bill stuff like that. ohh my gosh. still cant believe im actually reading the news. haha.

stats test was yesterday. depressed like crazy. it really sucked. just like my econs final exam. my section B i leave totally blank. WOW. ISNT THAT GREAT. okay moving on.

social psych test was not bad i think. :) why bio psych haven mark finish? see la! say what the format is mcq and short answer questions. HAHA VERY FUNNY. in the end, NO MCQ'S PLUS ESSAY QUESTIONS WITH ONE EVEN WEIGHING 35 MARKS. lol what the hell. tsk. if my bio psych lecturer not that cute, i complain already ahh!

need to cut down on eating fried chicken, fried wanton, and fried seaweed chicken everytime before lecture. haha. pimples are popping out and gonna keep popping up if i continue this diet. cause im sleeping quite little these few days and chiong-ing like crazy.

at least now no more mid-term tests! just have to concentrate on projects and presentations which are all due in less than one month. wah die la. very busy!! haha. this is a terrible sem. and to think its this sem that i wanted to aim for all A's. haha. jia you mel!

i love crime!! :)

i love you.

2009-09-10T12:45:00.002+08:00

so many movies, so little time! now sudden influx of a lot of good movies i think! haha. the proposal, gamer, g-force, the ugly within (something like that. the one with gerard butler in it).

rahhh. NO TIME AT ALL! rushing for project meetings, studying for tests. never mind. recess week is next next week. gonna take a little smallll break. had NM test today! woo. i think it went quite well. I THINK. haha. i hope it doesnt turn out like my econs. i thought that was good. hah. yeah right. my eyes popped out when i saw my results. but yesterday's stats test was rahhh. thought it was hard. didnt know how to do the calculations and all. WHY IS STATS SO HARD! attempted to do the tutorial for stats and walow. out of all 5 questions i only know how to do question 1(a). wonderful mel.

1 presentation down!

2009-09-04T16:44:00.002+08:00

i just had bio psych presentation today!! woooo. i love my group! haha everything went super well! :) one big heavy load off my shoulders. next up is stats 2 and issue tracking for NM. haha. so far, everything seems to going quite well just that SUPER SUPER BUSY!! i feel so bad like not being able to attend outings and stuff but seriously, the most common gathering that i go for now are like project meetings. haha. ive always preferred individual work. haha im an introvert loner! but 4 out of my 5 modules this sem have projects. what siaaaaa. :(

thank god for good group dynamics! :) plus, ooh. my social psych tutorial is a whole interesting bunch of people! haha. have a psychological thriller writer whos written over 10 scripts and like a girl whos the lead singer of a rock band! haha. shes also super into forensics. wah feel like meet a soulmate. haha. very little people have this interest lor!! woohoo. anyways, love my class.

just ate my fav curry chicken mee for lunch today. although it was super rush. TSK SZE YING. haha. it was damn shiok. i was SUPER SATISFIED. :) ive been eating fried stuff every day!

my brain is sooo tired from 6 hours straight of lessons today therefore im blogging. haha. anyway, i kinda like being so busy. its like make my life feel very fulfilling. no time to stone and think of things to do. haha. my organizer is like my baby now. everyday choked full of to-do lists. goshhh. haha. even sundays are like my faster catch up day now. i have NM exam 1, stats 2 group proposal due, and stats 2 quiz. rahhhh. plus all the readings haven catch up yet. not even for one single module!!!! haha.

okay. gonna go back to replying emails and stuff. totally feel like im a secretary. haha. dealing with lots of correspondence. :)

my world is complete with you in my life.

i am finally backkkk

2009-08-22T16:29:00.002+08:00

wow. cant believe i haven blogged in almost 3 months! haha. just been so busy that the motivation for blogging doesnt come anymore. and whenever im on my com, ill either do work or play realarcade games. :) anyway, school's started. already the second week. GOSHHH. I HAVE A 5 DAY WEEK! yeah i know. like WHAT?! im only taking 5 modules and im in FASS for gods sake. haha. but what to do, no webcasts at all for my modules this sem AND one lecture a day. wonderful. on thurs, i only have one lecture which lasts for like one and a half hours? im just gonna camp at SOC and study study study. haha. working hard on my readings every single day now, i want my CAP of 5!!! yes!! :)

think its cause of the weather a lot of people were sick. i was too. for i think 2 weeks i got sore throat and flu but thank god, no fever! cause i kept drinking chrysanthemum, luo han guo, leng yang. then eating all kinds of healthy food plus TOTALLY avoiding fried food. hhaa. now im all better! just getting migraines now and then cause of the extensive reading ive been doing. cant believe how chiong i am this sem. haha. considering its only the 2nd week. but what to do, high expectations this sem PLUS ive got like 3 tests in week 5. which is only 3 weeks away!!!

ive been watching dou niu yao bu yao whenever i have free time. haha. THANK YOU DIANA!!! love you! haha. its actually quite nice. hmm. but i dont have an extremely swooning sensation for he jun xiang. haha. though i know a lot of people who definitely have. like the storyline though. haha. im always a sucker for triangle relationships. pity the guy/girl who gets neglected even though she has been there for the guy like FOREVER. love just aint fair man. :)

watched UP a while ago. I LIKE IT A LOT!! haha at first i was quite skeptical cause its like a cartoon. yeah. didnt wanna spend money watching cartoons in a cinemas. but it turned out to be so heart-warming and sweet and funny! i really loved it! hahha. great show. should have watched the 3D although the tix are like 10 bucks more ex. think theres another cartoon coming up about mice i think. or dogs that save the world or something like that. im gonna watch that in 3D! :) ohh yeah. the proposal just came out toO! i wanna watch that show. like when im free which is dunno when.

my thoughts are like incoherent haha. so my this blog post basically has no chronological order or something like that. 3 months is a long time to update. and with all my newly stuffed psychological theories and terms, there aint much space left to remember the details of what i did or where i went. haha. anyway, im taking 4 psych modules and 1 NM this sem. yay! love psych. forensic science was too high on bid points. maybe ill try that another sem. so im taking :

PL2132- stats 2

PL3232-bio psych

PL3235-social psych

PL3241-personality and individual differences

NM2219-principles of communication management (which is basically effective public relations)

so everything is good this sem other than the 5 day week. at least im not doing some disgusting business module which i have totally no aptitude for. :)

gonna go increase my glucose intake then go and relax for a while :) finished one chapter on personality today. enough! its the weekend!! :)

2009-06-19T11:10:00.002+08:00

shucks. couldnt resist. haha. i think i have an obsession about books now. mainly thriller. haha. im into my thriller mood. not even psychology books can bring me out of my thrillers. haha. went popular just to look-see after dancing. anddd. i ended up with 2 books. haha. JD's "the bodies left behind" and dan brown's "digital fortress". wooooo. yay. 2 more books to read. happy happy! im gonna read them REAL slow so that can last me more than 3 days. :)

yesterday's dance was like whoaa. nearly died from the warm-up. crunches then push-ups guy style. haha. i could barely hold on. but amazingly, today no aches! maybe my body is slowly getting used to this tortorous warm-ups. although my arm strength and stomach strength is still umm. not that good? haha. my stomach muscles are the worst. haha. god please grant me the discipline to work out!!! haha. :)

jeffrey deaver rocks!!! :)

2009-06-18T17:10:00.002+08:00

its been really long since i blogged yet again. haha. seems like my posts are like monthly. not intentional though! i only blog when i have the time and the mood to blog. :) lots of things have transpired :)

firstly, MY BIG ULCER!! :( :( :( it hurts. and it looks scary. yesterday for dinner, everything on the table was like fried and also have a big pot of curry. haiz. even though i had ulcer, i still couldnt resist!! ohh come on man. who can resist fried chicken with super crispy-looking skin, sotong balls and delicious curry? okay. health-conscious people. which is why NOT ME! im contemplating on putting salt on it so that it can go away faster but heh. dunno whether i dare not. my threshold of pain is like. ohh super high. the distance from an ant to the ground WHEN ITS STANDING ON THE GROUND. but i really want it to go away!! and like other stuff are bitter. i mean salt just kinda kills you right? yeah salty is better than bitter. need a few more days to convince myself, maybe by then, NO MORE ULCER. i pray.

was blog surfing just now. taking a break from my work. hmm. its quite amusing and enlightening when you read people's blogs sometime. its like totally different from the person you know in real life. and you start wondering is everything just a facade? haha. thats just the pessimistic side of course. but i think blogs are good for people rarely in contact to catch up with other people's lives. lol. but after reading JD's book "roadside crosses", everything is casted in a scary light. haha. i almost thought of not blogging anymore. haha. speaking of that.

JD=JEFFREY DEAVER= EXCEPTIONAL AUTHOR=PERFECT AND INTRIGUING PSYCHOLOGICAL CRIME THRILLER! the best ever!!! serious. im not exaggerating at all. he fulfills my need for twists and wonderfully delicious details. hes the best! im obsessed with his books! hahaha. reading and reading nowadays. totally become a book worm. haha. i missed my bus stop like twice and nearly missed like billions of times cause i couldnt tear my eyes away from the book. haha :) tried another crime thriller author, jonathan kellerman, but nah. although not bad the storyline, but NOWHERE CLOSE to JD. :D

developing a soft spot for strawberry ice blended especially when the weather is so hot. heh. :) ai wu ji wu. even feel like swimming. hmmm. been working these few days and just reading. craving to go new and exciting places. cant wait for the malaysia trip this weekend! yay! :)

gonna go for my dance class soon. ohh yeah. cant wait to learn cool dance steps but aargh, first have to get through the 40 minutes of warm-up exercises first. the most torturous i have ever been through in my life. but lucky, heh. not as if my class is filled with totally fit and hiong people so i can camouflage!! :) working hard on improving my flexibility though.

ALL THE BEST SHANG FOR YOUR EXAM TOMORROW!! :D

haha. too lazy to blog about the small details in my life this past month. and due to short-term memory and lack of encoding, probably forgot many of them :) soooo gonna go off and maybe put salt on my ulcer. GODDDD. prepare to cry man. haha.

till next time! hopefully not next month :)

goshhhh

2009-05-13T23:03:00.002+08:00

goshh. i haven blogged in more than one month! haha. must have been the craziness of studying and the killer exam period this sem. just briefly speaking, this sem's exams are the WORST in my whole life and im not exaggerating. seriously. haha. my brain was like dulled or something. and i totally flunked my econs. lets hope everybody does badly then i will love the bell curve. haha. but ive put it all behind me! :) from next sem onwards, every sem get a CAP of 5 can already. yupp yupp! :) siao.

today my block had the fogging of dustbins. haha. when i stepped out of my house to meet shang for lunch. OHH MY GODDD. it was the aftermath of the scene of a battlefield. just that instead of dead bodies, its dead cockroaches, some still struggling some still alive. YUCKSSSSSSSSS. seriously, every step i take, i had to avoid a disgusting wriggling YUCKY insect. i almost ran through my block. its damn freaky. i always feel like growling deeply when i see cockroaches. i remember last year after the fogging, there were so many cockroaches crawling around the lift lobby that i couldnt even go close to it. i scared that even if i rush into the lift, the cockroach might come in before the doors close. and the thought of being in the same lift with a live cockroach just give me the creeps. *shudders* so i had to climb the stairs. WALOW. 13 storeys just cause of stupid eerie cockroaches. they are like number one on my hated list.

anyway, went to spontaneously watch wolverine today. it was quite a short movie. umm. i really dunno why people swoon over daniel henney. haha. i didnt think he looked good here. his hair was a bit weird. i think he looked a bit better in samsoon. :) well, hes not my type. haha. i might get clobbered by a lot of people by saying that. haha. anyway, wolverine was okay. i liked the love story that binded the whole plot together. :) but i think it lacked in one area, it showed too little awesome mutant powers. i think i love the original x men series more. or maybe cause i dont feel like i got into the atmosphere. after all, i watched it in eng wah cinema which i hate the chairs. its those you must put something heavy to keep the seat down. walow. i kept dropping my things cause of the stupid chair. GV is still the leading cinema. love it. im gonna boycott eng wah. haha.

speaking of movies, i also watched taken the another day. its niceeee. i like it. :) although it exposes like the dark side of smuggling prostitutes, but the action-packed scenes were like damn cool. and liam neeson was awesome :) just like jason stratham was in transporter. just cool man.

yesterday went out with hanger to get alana's present. spent around 2 hours in the arcade. wooooo. haha. been long since i did that. missed playing daytona. and im so proud of my arcade bball!! yayyyy. i got 430! haha. :) but i can only be that accurate in the arcade. haha. put me in a real bball game and ill be scared. think i just scared people bump into me then i fall and my ankle crack again. haha. thats why i love sports where theres a net between opponents :) like tennis and badminton and other racket games. hmm. then at night, met up with emmy and joyce to chill and chat :) went to some jap place to eat then go gelare for waffle night!! haha. chocolate overload was a bit bitter. i thought it would be ultra sweet but it wasnt. the honey malt ice cream was sweeter. but goshh i better drink more water these few days. if not a sore throat will come.

went k box on monday!! :) with shang, jian rong, han xian and van. woooo. sang 7 hours and didnt feel like i was gonna lose my voice after that. long time no sing!!! haha. enjoyed myself although i sang a lot of rubbish songs i never sing before. and the last part we went crazy, just singing english songs all the way. haha. :) at night, i caught enchanted again on vcd. yay love that show. its so nice and fairy-tale like but like a dash of reality also. its just nice and sweet :) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA (okay that was supposed to be like giselle humming a tone but of course, i cant show tone variation using just words -_-). i read in the "why men dont listen and women cant read maps" that men can imitate animal sounds super well. haha. no wonder someone can imitate pip the chipmunk so lifelike!!! :) heeee.

this post-exam period is gonna be exciting!! im not planning to get a job other than tuition. im gonna learn dancing! yay! :) after 2 and a half long years. hope my old bones dont crack. :) meeting up with a lot of old friends and friends to keep. and reading my 11 books that i borrowed from the library yesterday. woohoooo. my chinese novels and my love psychology books. DAMN EXCITING. haha. at least i got something to read on my travelling journeys which otherwise just waste my life away.

ohh. and i finished playing ace attorney!!! woohoo man. thats a great game!! :) thanks fabian!!! yay.

gonna play and be happy till the 29th when results come out. haha.

forever and ever. :)

headache

2009-04-01T21:32:00.003+08:00

got a headache!! still in school writing my SE fieldtrip report. HALFWAY THROUGH!! yess!! first time i never wait till tomorrow night then do. cause the deadline is only on friday. woo. so proud of myself. haha. even though its like 9.30pm, SOC still considered crowded. scaryy. a whole bunch of com muggers. haha. no wonder shang say SOC stressful. lol. practically everyone is programming or reading alien looking codes and symbols :) well, i guess i can blend in! cause im typing on my laptop too!

need to cut my hair, change my specs (cause my degree go higher and my perpetual headache is cause my glasses wrong degree already.) think im gonna go check my degree and choose specs tomorrow. maybe. if i feel ive done enough work.

wont be blogging very often. maybe after these 2 crazy weeks. HEADACHE!!!! rahhhh.

sick :(

2009-03-18T21:12:00.002+08:00

im sick... today had running nose like mad. then im utterly exhausted now after taking the drowsy flu pill. think i dont have enough sleep. gosh. if my mum hadnt fetched me home from school today, squeezing through the peak hour would confirm make me faint and like on the car, i felt like vomitting a lot of times. haha. it sucked badly. i thought it was cause im hungry so went to eat ajisen ramen which normally is super filling. guess i was hungry so i ate the whole meal, big bowl of ramen plus prawn fritters. and then i felt like i didnt even eat anything. walow. crazy. and i finished my ramen meal in record time. 20 mins!!!! ohh my gosh. never have i ever ate ramen so fast.

yay! happy in cognitive psych class today. :) maybe ill pluck up the courage to talk more in classes nowadays. my journey of becoming braver has just begun! :)

tomorrow interviewing shunji sinsei for TR project. GOSHH. big shot. haha. scary. but exciting at the same time!! :) hope the sleep i get tonight will strengthen me! please god! :)

i love you

RAINN

2009-03-16T14:45:00.002+08:00

today went out briefly for some errands which ultimately took 2 and a half hours.RAHH. haha. and it started pouring!! hmm. dunno why i loved rain so much last time but these days seem like that crazed love starting to dissipate. maybe its been RAINING TOO MUCH. and i kinda got sick of it. no more novelty. plus, im carrying more stuff that cant get wet. haha. or im going out so i dont wanna get drenched. PLEASE REMIND ME NOT TO WEAR LONG JEANS DURING THIS RAINY PERIOD. yuckss. cause i wanted to dress slack so took out my long-haven-been-wearing baggy jeans which was long and my slippers. and eww. think they got dragged in the muddy sand and i nearly slipped a lot of times! hazardous experience. -_-

today is monday! so its my free day. gonna watch tv and study! yay. yesterday went my grandma house for some reunion lunch. and i was the only person my age there. :( so looking on the positive side, after talking a bit and having lunch, i could retreat to a room and mug! haha. so i read 77 pages of stats yesterday. WAY TO GO MEL! :) although it wasnt very hard to read cause i have stats background. haha. feel more studious nowadays. although the urge to play phoenix wright is always there! haha. i think im progressing at a fast pace! BUT IM STILL STUDYING!! DONT WORRY :)

very heaty nowadays. think im gonna adopt a more healthier diet and lifestyle. at least for the time being. haha. hold my hand and guide me. :) no more tori q, super fried chicken, non-exercise, curry chicken noodle. :( bye bye.

sat was an enjoyable day! haha. morning wake up for TR makeup lecture. damn early. start at 9. but whoops, cause of a certain dream i had, i couldnt wake up at the stipulated time i was supposed to. so in the end, my mum fetched me and shang to school. :) and for the first time ever, i paid SUPER MUCH attention in the lecture, gosh i actually enjoyed it. and listened without feeling bored!!! SERIOUSLY, IM VERY PROUD OF MYSELF. haha. and the stage-fright me even gave some opinions in front of so many people! i see the progess mel. jia you! :) my TR project is also propelling forward i can feel. at least we can see the light at the end of the tunnel. PLEASE GOD, CONTINUE TO HELP US!!! :)

after my lecture, went to meet dave for a movie. marley and me. OOOOHHH. niceeee. haha. i cried quite chamly. but its totally suited for girls!! haha. dogs and babies. its adorable. although the funny things weren't many, its more of a heartwarming story than a romantic comedy. all the same. its really nice. :)

the rest of the night was wonderful.

okay gonna bathe then study!! :) while multi-tasking watching tv!

you make me laugh like no one else can.

2009-03-09T14:27:00.003+08:00

its still raining so heavily. rahh. i haven eaten my lunch yet. but i dont wanna get myself all wet so i decided to remain at home till the rain stops. haha. its been 3 hours i think. okay. ill confirm go down at 3. too hungry :(

yay im finishing studying my econs! i mean the first time. haha. 10 more pages to go. wooooo. but i have lots of other readings to do. at least no super pressing deadlines. I HANDED IN MY 2 ESSAYS ON FRIDAY! ohh yes man. great accomplishment! damn happy. haha. must reward myself with more pheonix wright. HAHA. skipped econs lecture on friday to rush out my essay. haha. and skipped SE lecture too. it started at 2. and i chiong-ed my essay till 1. haiz. my discipline in jc is gonee. haha. i could stay up super late till AM just to finish my essay. but now procrastinate until like that. i think my policy has become must sleep enough if not cannot handle uni life. which is true i guess to some extent. haha. ANYWAY.

went for rachel's STAGED play. haha. it was nice. and funny. lol. rachel super aunty! i think acting in these plays or doing some activity like dancing as a big group is very fun! cause confirm will bond together through all those millions of endless practices. haha. :) really wanna do that someday. but maybe dancing la. acting a bit. hmm. even though ACCORDING TO PEI HUI AND MISS LYE, I HAVE MANY A.A. EXPRESSIONS. not the attract attention k. it stands for something else. but im not that BHB. haha. but i have stage fright! so unless i miraculously overcome it, its quite impossible for me to act or public speak. GOSHH. the thought of it makes my hair stand. haha. met some new people! hmm. which makes me conclude that love is probably blind. heh. :) i said PROBABLY ahh. anyway, its shang's first full blast of peeweeee. hahaha. but i think you learn the skill of wind beside ears already. HAHA. although PEEWEE AHH. SUPER HARD TO IGNORE. :)

econs presentation also over! although i didnt present, haha. but im just glad its over. dont need late night meetings and rushing out diagrams which often look alien to me. cause i never take econs before! haha. quite stressed being with econs people. but! my econs textbook have nice smell. so i think i can persevere!! :)

ohh yeah! i watched hes just not that into you. EHH DAMN NICE CAN! whats with the newspaper movie reviews? its really very nice! haha. even though its like a little over 2 hours, its the first time i didnt feel like the time was very long! normally ill think how long the movie is already, haha. i think it portrays everyday life. and i like it a lot! :) RECOMMENDED.

last week was a rush week. this week more relaxed :) yay. friday going to watch a play. then meeting up with friends. and hanging out with loved ones. what more could i ask for?

everyday with you is magical

inactive for too long

2009-02-25T22:10:00.005+08:00

ive been inactive on this blog for too long that i dont know what to write. haha. i feel like im obligated to write something long but normally the more you wanna think about what happened the past few weeks, the more you will draw blanks. its like the mechanism of explicit memory has suddenly been choked. haha. paiseh. been studying too much cognitive psych till my brain is like filled with neuropsychology mechanisms, central executive, visuospatial sketchpad and blah blah blah. haha. set a goal to finish 129 pages and i read about 53 pages today. wow. im not even halfway through and i have other stuff to do! okay. recess week dont feel like it. haha. but im still happy with how my recess week is going.

lovely study sessions, wonderful meetups! haha. especially best friend surprise birthday celebration last friday, haha. it was hilarious. we collaborated with her smu friends. blindfolded her and walked around the outskirts of smu till the room was decorated enough. gosh. cute best friend even thought we were at cathay!! haha. anyway, i think it was nice having so many groups of her friends in one single room. i miss the days when such a cosy atmosphere was felt and a whole lot of people were there for me. haha. i really miss having a fixed class. rahh. the chocolate cake was really nice!! yay :) then best friend, pei hui, hanger, char, rach, and ks and me went manhattan to eat! wooo. long time never step in there. ive been craving fish and chips either from there or fish and co. haha. i think other places are not as nice. loved the food!! :) and heh heh, talked and caught up, cam-whored and everything :) after much relentless persuasion, i uploaded about 53 pictures onto facebook. yes FACEBOOK. haha. i haven stepped into that place since last year. THERES JUST TOO MANY APPLICATIONS THERE! dont like that place. :( haha. i spent a whole morning just uploading stuff and managing my facebook account.rahhh.

today went to eat lunch with hanger and alana at swensons! haha. goshh.been spending too much money these days. must budget the next few days. haha. :) love you bim bim and bo bo. you pok head. I AM NOT BIMBO. haha. you 2 combine is so not me. :p

yesterday after a day of studying with shang, :) went to meet hanger, best friend and pei hui for dinner! we wanted to go newton circus to eat first but it was closed down. haha. so we went new york new york instead. ehh i first time go!!! the spring chicken was very tender. haha. but we whacked so fast that we had to order another one. hmm. the waffles with chocolate ice cream was nice but i still think its tad a bit over-priced. :) hmm like the little place we sat at though. like very private and exclusive to ourselves though hanger had a hard time getting the waitress attention. WHAHAHHAA. looks like hanger charm only works for aunties ehh? :D we wanted to eat half price cakes at cartel but rahhh. the raffles city branch closed down, renovation for macs. soo weird. macs at such a small corner? hmm. anyway, ended the day by chilling at esplanade river there. romantic :)

checklist of stuff to do :
1. discuss finish econs presentation ( which im doing now)
2. complete TR2201 ppt presentation
3. finish reading cognitive psych textbook
4. do cognitive psych term paper
5. do SEA essay
6. study for econs test
* RAHHHHH. HALF OF RECESS WEEK IS OVER! but actually im not very stressed yet. :) the evidence being that my hair is still untouched :)*

V day was lovely. :) im happy. really. plus, my dining table is so much brightened. i appreciate everything. :D

the rest of the week is packed full of activities! :) tomorrow i have project discusssion, then hanging out and playing games. friday study day! then sat and sun i got tuition in the MORNING. ohh my gosh. burn my weekends like that. HOW TO SLEEP IN!! its recess week know!!!! never mind. haha. i wont complain so much since i have like a 3 day week. dont kill me. different faculty ahh different faculty. :) and on sunday night, going for rachel's musical! haha. looking forward to that! :) and meeting up with the guys again :) loves!

okay. i gotta wrap up my econs discussion i hope. die. im sleepy already. haha.

tired and kinda sick

2009-02-04T13:05:00.004+08:00

i haven been blogging for a while again. rahh. im like coughing and sometimes the onset of fever. think im too tired or im working too hard. haha.. which is totally not true. i think ive just been sleeping too late and waking up too late. THEREFORE, these few days im gonna try to get as much rest as i can! im still in school waiting for my tutorial to start at 2. weds are my busiest day! but i guess that cant be helped when i only have a 3 day week. haha. my day today is 9 to 6. GOSHH. tired sia. haha im reading psych research paper to prepare for discussion later. hmm.

chinese new year just over and this year is a good harvest year! haha. just had fun hanging out with different ppl. playing ban luck for the first time with money! WAH SHIOK SIA. haha. now i know what it feels like having a gambler mentality. haha. BUT. as long as dont bet too much and be too ambitious, its a fun game. :) didnt eat too much goodies this year cause i felt like i was already coming down with either flu or fever. :( stupid cough came just after i ate 2 mandarin oranges. 2 only know!!! i wish i was emmy~ haha.

on sunday, went shang house for reunion lunch. ate steamboat, sing karoke, made new friends. was kinda fun. :) although some amusing stuff happened also. OHH THE AUSTRALIAN OPEN MEN'S SINGLES CHAMPIONSHIP between nadal and federer. DAMN EXCITING CAN!! the whole match lasted for 4 and a half hours. goshh. their stamina is astounding and they kept up their standard for almost the whole match!! haha. nadal's habit is funny though. wont say here cause quite unglam. haha. i was like going crazy seeing all their powerful shots. haha. but. aww man. poor federer lost to nadal in the end. it was a very close match!!! i felt so sad for him when he cried. poor guy.ITS OKAY! THERES NEXT YEAR!!!

formed my project group for econs today. yay! they are nice people who study econs before. great! :) still behind on readings but im not very scared about that. hmm tomorrow must start to pia for TR2201 already!!! my group leader rocks. :)

okay. back to reading my research paper.

chinese new year!

2009-01-24T21:42:00.003+08:00

whoaa. i went shopping today with my mum for new year and i bought lots of stuff!! haha. i gawked at the price. its just so cool to buy stuff and not have to see the price. :) all the stuff were so heavy! and once again, i realize that im SO NOT SHOPPING MATERIAL. but i spent one hour in a single shop keep trying on clothes! haha. i feel so bad hogging one of the changing rooms for so long when people were queueing. well. my mum kept shoving me clothes, not that im complaining about it! im actually quite happy with what i bought. i bought shoes too! :) well, then i took a lucky draw and i won a bag of sweets. haha. i was hoping for a mystery gift. hmm. THE WEATHER WAS SO HOT today. goshh. it was really bad. i felt like i was gonna get a heat stroke or something. spent my whole saturday shopping then chilling at home reading my novel in my lovely air con room. yay! loved it.

well, thats the good thing about chinese new year. of cause not to mention i can see the numbers in my bank account rise. yes!!! time to update passbook after chinese new year. not gonna update now. ill be sad when i see the numbers go down cause of my ultra expensive textbooks.

I HATE SPRING CLEANING. haha. kinda cause it makes me soooo tired! and one whole day just aint enough to clean the whole of my room. and please, my room is not messy. its just im supposed to clean every crook and cranny. and i have LOTS OF STUFF. haha. it was a torture. so prudent me, hoping to prevent this horrible experience again next year, re-organised all my stuff and threw away tons of stuff! soft toys, cd's. everything i didnt use or grew old, out it went. haha. my room really looks more spacious now. and im proud of it. :) next will be throwing out old clothes that i dont wear and stuff thats too small! thats for another day. im lazy and tired nowadays. haha. i keep using studying as an excuse to postpone. :P anyway, thank god. my mum is really happy with the way my room turned out, soo i can leave it like it is for 3 years!! plus minus. i just have to remind myself not to buy too many unnecessary new things to clutter up my room again. i think ive grown out of the soft toy age UNLESS its really sentimental BEARS. :)

anyway, school life is okay so far. i got all the modules i wanted!! yes yes!! im still gonna double major in psych and business but i guess the business modules im gonna take are gonna be a bit different. ive decided that i shouldnt do stuff i dont like just cause i think its gonna help my career in the future. i should just enjoy the last part of my study career!!!! THEREFORE, IM GOING TO SAVE UP POINTS TO TAKE 3 MODULES OF FORENSIC SCIENCE! yay. lovely. :)

suddenly feel like doing something crazy. like clubbing or pubbing. haha. its totally just a phase. I HATE DRINKING. haha.

cant imagine life without you.

2009-01-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

I DIDNT GET MANAGERIAL ECONS. IM OFFICIALLY DEPRESSED. i hope my appeal gets through. if not, ill just take it im not meant to take business in major.

bidding=heart attack!

2009-01-10T14:21:00.002+08:00

AAAHHHH. today is the round where i bid for my business modules. and its totally not going welll!!! gosh. i might really have to resort to appeal. its irritating when people have so many bid points and they just whack everything. HELLO!! what about those poor people that haven had the chance yet to snowball all their points? goshhh!! haha. so i guess im taking entrepreneurial marketing and managerial econs. that is, if i successfully bid. rahhh!!! and psych is really popular. haha. i bidded 300 points for cognitive psych and thats after i declared my major. gosh.

that aside. yesterday was my mum's birthday!! haha. okay fine. the first year where i actually did lots of things. :) yay. i bought a new white bag! couldnt resist. lol. WELL. these urges rarely come when i go shopping. sooo when they come, i should totally listen to them right!! yes mel. okay. anyway, my internet connection which has been linked to my phone line have been giving me problems. but yes! finally, it got solved once and for all. no more irritating have to unplug stuff, no more engaged tone on my house phone. hmm. at night went din tai fung to eat dinner with my mum and dad. EAT TILL SUPER FULL!!! haha. realised actually the stuff that they highly recommend on the menu is actually not that nice after all.

school starts next week! YESS! okay. i sound like a freak. BUT. i love studying and the whole immersing in school and books stuff. im too bored with holiday life now. although of course that sian feeling is countered with lots of happy laughter and smiles. and if everything goes well, i have a 3 day week! haha. this better help in my CAP score.

the blister on the sole of my feet is still black! haha. cause of the blood clotted there. my first time! it hurted the first day. haha. all cause i played bball bare footed. think my foot too long never get exposed to too muvh fiction. haha. hmm. think i shouldnt cut it first cause tomorrow going ECP!! ohh yeah. i wanna play beach volleyball! please dont rain tomorrow.

ohh and we celebrated bel birthday! haha. at bugis some fish place. ohh yeah! fisharoo. it was fun just sitting down and chatting about everything for like 3 hours plus? girl talk man. cant think of other stuff that i did! umm. lol i need an organiser soon.

PLEASE LET ME GET MY MODULES SUCCESSFULLY!

5 months. :)

new year is coming!!

2008-12-30T11:10:00.005+08:00

im hungry!! but i think ill blog a while before i go downstairs buy lunch. haha. i think today is my stay at home day. then can rest. watch tv, watch CSI, read the end of globalization( haha. this will take up tons of time!) and play computer games! yes. who says staying at home has to be boring? aiyoh. i thought i would sleep in today and around 8 plus, i got woken up by car alarm ringing from the parking space below my house.. think the poor owner's car key thing spoil thats why he cant off the alarm. the alarm ring then went off then ring again! walow. IRRITATING. haha. but i was still kinda tired so i just shut off. imagine how many people were cursing him. poor guy.

hmm. anyway, yesterday my phone line went dead. haha. turns out its my microfilter problem. the connection from my phone line to my internet. hmm. now it seems better but once in a while, it gets cut off again. QUITE IRRITATING. especially when i use both the phone and the internet at the same time. hmm. i wonder whether i should call the technician again. anyway, i played twister yesterday! with an extra twist. and gosh. today my shoulders are aching. hah stay in weird and hard positions for too long! rahh. im not nua! pok head. hahah. :) i totally need to work out. why o school haven get back to me? i wanna sign up for hip hop class!!!

ohh yeah. results are out. and it was not bad. :) lets see whether the theory really works. im gonna work extra hard next sem! haha. this christmas period has been fun. :) not really doing a lot of stuff. but its just the company ive been with. so its been great! i watched transformers for the first time on sunday. yeah okay im slow. shut up. haha. it was great! heart-pumping adrenaline rushing. haha. and the pick-up lines are funny!

i watched yes man also! haha. it was quite funny. :) not a bad show. as usual since its jim carrey. hmm. tomorrow is new year's eve already! got bbq then go watch gig! yays! :) all the best! i know you will be good. 2008 is really coming to an end. and i know exactly whats the best thing to thank for.

results coming out!!!

2008-12-22T23:03:00.002+08:00

-_- results coming out tomorrow morning!! haha i refused to know my CAP score prematurely but now the time is finally here. tomorrow 9am. PLEASE. let me do well. i really studied hard. GOSHHH PLEASEEEE.

anyway, i appear to be able to speak almost normally most of the time now. tons of water helps but i think ill better see the doctor tomorrow morning. so that it can heal more quickly and ill be able to sing christmas carols! yay. :)

i think watching someone playing an instrument on stage is uber cool. im so looking forward to that. :)

let everything turn out fine.
let irritating people disappear. (haha just kidding, cause then almost the whole population will be gone? plus, the definition of irritating is subjective. possibly people who keep invading your private spaces on the mrt or bus? YEAHH. aargh. no sense of space judgement..tsk.)

waiting for that special future i see in your eyes.

no voice during christmas!!!

2008-12-21T00:17:00.002+08:00

i just got back from a wedding not long ago. wah tired. haha. plus, i got a super bad sore throat and kinda running nose. i missed the morning church wedding cause i wasnt feeling very well. BUT MIRACULOUSLY, after tons and tons of water and eating porridge and healthy stuff, i felt better. and i can squeak out a bit of voice now. haha. i just hope i dont get a sore throat induced fever again. anyways, its a first time in a longgg time i went for wedding dinner. got to dress up and everything. GOSH. there is soo much to learn about make up. and quite honestly i think its super bothersome! haha craps. AM I A GIRL? it was at raffles city swiss-otel. i drank superbly many cups of tea. haha. like 50? i knew i drank A LOT. every 3 mins i re-filled one cup. haha. cause i couldnt drink any gasy drinks and the water that they provided had a bit of gasy after taste. haha. that is soo weird.

aah wells. lucky i didnt have to talk much haha. just had to smile a lot. anyway, after the wedding, when we were waiting to pick up the car from the valet. WHOA. there were a few convertibles parked beside each other. GORGEOUS! lamborghini, mustang. blah blah. in bright red (MY FAV!), LIME GREEN and champagne. haha. wow. it was an eye-goggling sight.

anyway, christmas is coming and i really hope my voice recovers before then!!! i hate not being able to sing christmas carols! okay i promise to drown my stomach with TONS of water to flush away all the toxins and heatiness. GOD HELP ME!!! haha.

i just turned 19 a few days ago. and i thank all those people who wished me and celebrated for me!! yay my dear friends! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! firstly on tuesday, double dated with emmy. it was really fun! yay. screamed and schemed at minds cafe. (ehh ehh sounds nice) haha. SANTIAGO!!! first hands and UGLY DOLL! haha. yay. love the pictures. and thanks for the wonderful card emmy!! :) lets have some more outings soon!!

on my actual day, haha. i went fishing with shang!! NEW EXPERIENCE. loved it. love you. the winds were sooo cooling. haha. love the beach and sea!! okay. im gonna learn cycling. then i dont have to walk super long distance at east coast!! haha goshh. walked till my legs felt like breaking. whoa. but i totally wanna try wakeboarding and cool water sports!! :) gym here i come to train my arm power! if not i will crash into the waves in a second. :( well, then my dear bel, emmy, jocelyn and rach surprised me by appearing behind and suddenly singing happy birthday very loudly!!! haha. wow. long time no see FAIR rachel! haha. same colour as me!! no white rabbit! thank you guys!! :) then me joyce, emmy and shang just hung around, ate,chatted and ate again. haha. thus ends my wonderful birthday.

ooh, on thursday. i went emmy house to play with MUSHROOMS! haha he is sooo cute!! lol. dashing about the house, and bumping into furniture (OUCH!). only responding to mum mum. hahahaha. greedy cute dog. following you when you get up and walk ESPECIALLY to the kitchen. haha. his cute squeaky toy mr gingerbread man which is totally soaked with saliva. poor guy. mushrooms will press the toy filled with salivary amylase against your leg just so that he can produce the squeaky sound. haha. hes my persian rug. so nice to hug!!! :) just like the alive version of rara junior. loved him! :)

at night, went to meet my sa gang!!! yay!! only rach couldnt make it. :( went to marche and ate. THANK YOU GUYS FOR THE SURPRISE PLAN! love you!! all the crazy antics. god knows how many crazy things we could think out of a party hat. haha. screamed and laughed DAMN LOUDLY. okay practically everyone was staring. but i dont think any of you cared. lol. POSERS!! WHAHAHHA. thanks for the CSI MIAMI!! whahahha. im hooked onto it!!! yay. and the t-shirt. ill wear it!. some day. haha. i mean why would i not want to wear a shirt that publicizes im a dino and guarding the UOB bank? HAHAHHAHA. love you raccooon!!!

aah wells. im finally 19. coming close to the big 2!! aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh. okay its late. im sleepy. GOOD NIGHT!!

holiday season!

2008-12-13T16:28:00.002+08:00

its the holidays! haha. and i cant believe im not in the crazy yay i can do whatever i want mood. CAUSE. i absolutely dont know where to go. well. singapore has limited places. haha. i think the more you anticipate something to be really good, the more it disappoints. cause our imagination tends to exceed reality. :) WELLLL. next week is gonna be quite a busy week! and in order to prevent me from forgetting stuff. haha. im gonna write my schedule down in my diary again! :)

christmas is coming! got a wedding to attend. and people to meet. and caught up in a whirlwind of happiness.

thursday finally met up with glory! and best friend! haha. went to ps xin wang hong kong cafe. LOL. best friend fav place, her future wedding place. LOL. i can so imagine her in a nice dress, sitting at the side seat, DRINKING YUAN YANG AND GETTING MARRIED. what sia. haha. unique place for a wedding. CUT COST! VERY GOOD. haha. anyway, just chatted and caught up :) happy. yay. and then we went to watch BOLT! it was sooo cute. SERIOUSLY. its damn cute. haha. super funny. and i cried 3 times. shucks. hahah. I LIKE IT A LOT! :) but john travolta totally didnt sound like him. YINX THE RHINO!!!!! whahahhaha. went arcade a while after that, WHOA. the pros were there. there was this couple, they shoot together. and they got like 1000 plus. the highest live performance ive ever seeen. haha. *its kinda sweet though*

then glory had to leave us. met up with hanger and shang then the 4 of us went gluttons bay! i ate quite little though. then we went to watch live band performance! this band called NIGHTSOUND. well. the music was good. :) i think they will cut a great album. haha. i just dont really like people whos over the top. and the lead singer was a teeny weeny bit over. haha. ohhh! and then we wrote on those big wish balls that you see floating on the river in front of esplanade. THAT IS SOO COOL. haha. i haven done that ever!!! :) i hope my wish comes true.

on tuesday i went for dental. GOSHHH. i hate it! worst experience in a long time. cause my gums these few days have been quite weak. the dentist just poke. it bled. she carried out poking while doing her stuff. AND WOW. from oozing, it started gushing. and she made me hold a mirror and look. OH MY GOD. i felt like i was a vampire. NO KIDDING. it was just gross. if there wasnt the tube that was meant to suck blood, okay eww. i cant imagine what will happen. im scared when its time to pull my wisdom tooth next time. I WILL DIE I TELL YOU. i hate the dentist. although my teeth seriously looks nicer now. :) but, it was AN ORDEAL MAN. counting down to my next appointment in 3 months, goshhh.

im starting to watch kim san soon again! with shang. haha. LOVE THAT SHOW. shes damn funny. my fav korean show! second is full house. haha. makes me laugh and cry, then all the complicated relationship stuff then the character dynamics. haha. its just great!! speaking of watching show, tsk i very pissed!! my CSI miami and criminal minds will only be aired 2 weeks later cause of suzuki cup! WALOW. when its the holidays and i can watch in peace, you come and do this to me. this sucks man. i want my crime night back!!! haha.

my blogging mood is back :)

tomorrow going for boardgaming at shang's house. cant wait. haha. :)

i wanna spend forever with you.

im back!!!

2008-11-25T13:55:00.003+08:00

IM BACKKK!! see peewee im blogging!! haha. haven been blogging for a long time AGAIN. cause ive been mugging like crazy!! intensive mugging for 2 over weeks. and when i say intensive, i mean wake up start to mug, eating think of main points. wake up weirdly for nothing in the middle of the night like around 4am. GOSH. TOTALLY NOT ENOUGH SLEEP CAN!! and i cant help it. and its mostly mugging for psych! thank god today i finished my psych paper. YES YES YES!!!! :) :) :) now just have to revise for socio paper tomorrow. and can slacken a bit before film art paper next tuesday. THEN BYE BYE SEM 1!!!!!!! gosh. after the exam today, i became quite hyper. haha. i think after 2 weeks of suppressed feelings and emotions cause of INTENSIVE MUGGING, haha. i just became crazy. went with my mum to j8 and ate ramen, and practically just couldnt stop laughing at trivial things. i think i was crazy. haha.

today's paper was quite okay. the 100 mcq wasnt as bad as mid-term. haha. a relief cause im almost certain i cant remember all the weird weird french or german researchers names and the year they did their research in. aah wells. hope i did well enough! :) WHY famous researchers cant have names like john tan or david lim. something like that. it always has to be vygotsky, robert sternberg, weschler. AND THESE ARE THE EASY NAMES THAT I CAN REMEMBER OFFHAND. haha. wells. ITS OVER and i shant complain. after all, psychology is my passion! yes, im now able to say that proud and clear again after i finish my paper. :)

anyway, im really upset why ajisen dont sell paiku ramen anymore. COME ON MAN. if its cause of rising costs, i think they're making a huge mistake. cause its one of the most popular ramen they sell and they are sooo gonna lose customers cause of it. i go less regularly cause of that. and they totally changed the menu, to cater to their profits i know. but its still a stupid decision i think. haha. im so gonna write feed back. im gonna da bao lots of feedback forms home then ask different people to petition for paiku ramen to come back. haha. (so that got different handwriting) then when i go back to eat, bom everything. haha. its just a thought. :) im nice enough and not desperate enough to implement it.

yesterday chem's paper was AAAAHHHHH. again. haha. now i can only reduce my cognitive dissonance by reminding myself that its a pre-requisite for forensic science. hmm.

okay. i wanna play some computer game to relax, cant think of anything to blog. haha. my working memory is only storing school stuff. haha. K BOX, ICESKATING, ARCADE, BADMINTON, TENNIS. im cominggg!!! wait for meeeee!

its been too long ;)

back!

2008-11-13T00:02:00.002+08:00

i haven blogged in AGES i know that.finally have the time and mood! haha. im waiting for my hair to dry so might as well. :) today is a long study day! okay, these few days have been. but amazingly, I TOTALLY DONT FEEL STRESSED. should i get worried about not feeling stressed? haha. cause technically, my first paper is next sat. PHILOSOPHY!! cheeem. i studied till 10pm in central library today. haha lots of people there! especially now when they open it 24 hours, i totally have the urge to bring a small pillow and then camp there. haha. macs is now 24 hours also. haha.spent the whole day (besides going for lectures and tutorials) studying socio course pack. wahhhh. FINALLY FINISHED RELIGION. feel like dancing for joy. haha. the words on the course pack are always so small! TSK. i read until eyes pain!! why cant they enlarge it? on second thoughts, yah maybe not. besides saving trees, which i totally dont really care, it will help to cut costs and THAT IS VERY IMPORTANT.

today went co-op to see see cause i was early for tutorial and i went to the psych section. picked up this cognitive psychology book thats SMALLER than my current psych textbook AND THINNER. my current book is 50 plus bucks. when i saw the price of that book, i nearly fainted. 120 bucksss!! OMG. my pocket is gonna get burned till nothing is left. tertiary education is crazy man. -_- imagine every 3 months spending hundreds on textbooks.

i came out of the house forgetting my earphones today. at first i thought ill be super bored. but haha on the long bus ride,i slept AGAIN. nowadays, i always sleep! then imagine im somewhere on my bed comfortably sleeping, then the bus jerks and i knock my head against something. shucks man. unglam. haha.

mirroring emmy's blog, mcspicy is becoming suckyyy! its like so healthy now. meaty flat pattys. WHERE IS THE JUICY, OILY,FATTENING PATTYS? okay i know it sounds gross. but thats really nice!!!!! shucks man no more value for money. haha. went national library on tuesday with emmy to mug. goshh 9 plus in the morning and the study lounge was already packed. hello! super kiasu! haha. but wah. relive the old days of mugging. remember i used to do it with abu. haha. but now deteriorate a bit. last time i was 100% total mugging material.

anyway, last week, met up with best friend, peewee, rach. wahh super happy! haha just went manhattan to eat and then starbucks to chill. IT WAS GREAT TIMES!!! we talked and crapped and took pictures. goshh loved it. it totally relaxed me and im happily studying once again. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! now im in the embrace uni life mode. :) getting used to the whole thing. first sem is ending. technically this is the last week of tutorials!! and! actually for thurs and fri, i just realise i dont need to go school at all. haha. but ill go school on friday just to print my notes and to meet shang! :) tomorrow, ill stay home to mug.

because of you, ive got the strength to carry on.

stop worrying!!!!

2008-10-28T15:41:00.002+08:00

i almost just reach school. haha. coming to school for one lecture is really weird. especially when its chem lecture. hmm. just passed up my socio assignment. I THINK I DIDNT DO VERY WELL. but it was quite last minute. and i really dunno how to analyze sociologically or what the pok. haha. hmm. waiting for my chem lecture to start now. realized i haven blogged in a week! its either really no time or not in the blogging mood. aah wells. school is sapping the energy out of me. haha. but never mind, now my assignments left 2 essays and im done! then it will be study for exam time. haha.

played badminton on sunday. haha shiok. gosh the first part i was in quite a bad mood. cause my stamina totally deteriorated from not exercising at all for one month. gosh sorry shang!! :( haha. think im quite temperamental these days which kinda sucks.

yesterday was deepavali and racoon's birthday!! haha. spend the time catching up with friends, rishi, clar and basically just slacking but mugging at the same time. haiz. its just these few days haven been good days overall. there are of course shout bouts of happiness. :) its all cause of you. :) but i think im feeling too restrained. once i wake up in the morning, i just start studying then i get tired very easily nowadays.

i dont feel like doing things i dont really like anymore. its time to think about me. if not, ill start going crazy. i like studying but this is kinda too much. -_- PRESSURE.

love love!

2008-10-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

YAY. love psych lecture today!! heh. :) it was about interpersonal relations, LOVE!! wah shiok man. studying concepts, theories about my fav subject in the world!! haha damn happy! :) love social psychology.

think im becoming heaty. all the late night sleeps, eating too much delicious curry puffs. haha. damn. ohh tomorrow is chem guest lecture. lets hope its good! and PLEASE let me speak up in philo tutorial tomorrow. haha. i need my 5% class participation. i think the film art one can heck already. i totally dont speak up at all can! haha.

i think shaun rocks! haha. how can someone mark my philo draft in like 2 hours after i sent it. i totally expected at least 2 days. but yay. i get to work on it again. haiz. thought i could rest a while. but uni pace is fast fast fast! sooo. back to studying!!! :)

not hating school anymore.

loves.

im better.

2008-10-18T22:47:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA. i swear its media propaganda. im back being cheerful! stupid mel, dwell on so many things for what? PLEASE BE POSITIVE. goshh im talking to myself. schizo. speaking of that, i wonder how much i got for my psych term paper. haha. faster announce results!!! :)

i finished my second draft of my philo term paper!! YES YES YES!!FINALLY! i really spent a long time revamping it. goshh. i hope im on the right track.

went for this globalization talk by dr vivian balakrishnan yesterday. it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be! in fact, in my normal mood, it was good and fun! :) yay. politics aint so boring after all. i love my company. :)

when the clock strikes twelve, im gonna shout i love you! softly. :)

whats happening?

2008-10-17T11:31:00.002+08:00

i dont know whats wrong,
emptiness just seem to prevail. got to keep studying to shake away those feelings.
cant help starting to compare,
i know its great, but i wish it doesnt always have to be embedded in reality.
i wish celebrations would occur,
i wish there were episodic days...

snap out of it mel. it cant get any better than this. or can it?

chemistry :(

2008-10-16T23:00:00.002+08:00

there better be a chemistry test tomorrow. haha. although i think he might want to finish teaching the whole syllabus then got test right? aah in any case, ive studied 5 and a half slides today in approx 4 hours. stare until tired. haha. goshh im on the lecture with 79 slides. my eyes nearly popped when i saw the number of slides. yes mel, you are very hardworking! GOSHH. i wanna do well this time and not just pass. EVEN THOUGH GOD KNOWS HOW WEIRD THE QUESTIONS WILL TURN OUT TO BE AGAIN. -_-

need to relax tomorrow night!! :) its shang time. break from studying FINALLY.

okay back to studying.

i hope you like it.

literally lame.

2008-10-15T22:14:00.002+08:00

i didnt go school today!!! wah sehh. first time pon uni stuff. BUT its cause im resting my hurt foot!! went to sinseh in the evening, WHAHAHAHAH. didnt hurt at all!!! yay. lucky sia. cause i didnt sprain the bone or something. just that now its bandaged in this big lump that makes it look really serious. aah well. another day of confinement tomorrow. maybe God is telling me to study. haha. well. i did do some stuff today. but i got frustrated from studying after a while. never mind!!! jia you. im totally gonna rest during the weekend, so now its pia-ing to study!!! :)

guess whats my most-used stationery now? MY ORANGE HIGHLIGHTER. haha. i depleted one stick in one week. WHAT SIA. last time it was always my g2 black ink dying but now, with laptop, i rarely write. haha. BUT with all my readings, i practically highlight like crazy! and cause im picky and i only like to see orange and yellow (predominantly orange), i better stock up on that. :)

k. im going to go discuss my chemistry project. HAIZ. I LOVE STUDYING. yes say that more mel.

bad day!!!

2008-10-14T15:47:00.002+08:00

haiz. so far today has been quite a negative eventful day. haha. the day started off well with me waking up at 11!! woohooo. haha. i didnt set alarm cause my first lesson only start at 4 so i thought ill just indulge myself. plus tonight is crime night!! HAHA. so gonna sleep at 1.30 tonight if cold case proves to be nice today. :)

rahh. then when i went downstairs to buy lunch, i sort of missed a step and i think i sprained my foot!! i used the word think cause im not really sure. i mean it does hurt when i walk, but it doesnt hurt THAT badly. this sucks. i was totally contemplating whether or not i should come to school. haha. but there was the dinner motivation! so here i am. in my chemistry lecture blogging. CAUSE HAVEN START OKAY! not cause im a bad student. im already prepared for another possibly sleepable lecture. bought drinks and food and im ready to PAY ATTENTION! haha. my chemistry project is due next friday. wanted to talk to my group mates today but one of them is sick. poor thing. :( never mind, guess we'll just meet online. these few days i dont really have the mood to mug. WHYYYY. my foot hurts. but not when i dont move it. i feel like whining. :(

AND. my mp3 earphones all of a sudden spoil one side!!! so now music only comes out from one side. how irritating is that!!! how am i supposed to blast music and block off all surrounding noise and study or something. now i cant even blast my music cause when you blast into one ear only, its DEFINITELY detrimental to your ears and my ears feel weird later. BOOOO. someone wanna buy me new earphones? :) the best thing is, my hp earphones one side padding come off, exposing the painful metal part. so ALSO ONE SIDE CAN USE ONLY.wah siannnnn. i dont wanna spend money to buy new stuff. kinda on budget now!!!! what with me stopping tuition, and 100 bucks of concession every month. okay. i feel like im complaining too much.

its okay. anticipation makes me happier anyway. THANKS EMMY!! :) i hope miracles happen and my foot straightaway becomes better when i wake up tomorrow, WITHOUT ME HAVING TO GO FOR FOOT MASSAGE. I SCAREDDDD. i remember i nearly cried the last time i sprained my ankle. but thank god, this time is not ankle, its just my foot. i already massaged my foot myself with lots of pain-relieving gel. PLEASE WORK!!!

I NEED NEW EARPHONES!!! WHEN IS CHRISTMAS GONNA COME? haha. okay im gonna pay attention in lecture now. bad day go away!!! someone save me. :( haha.

social psych! :)

2008-10-13T21:57:00.002+08:00

haha. i just had my first social psych lecture today. now i can see why social psych is one of the most popular branches in psychology. ITS REALLY INTERESTING!!! whahaha. and got interpersonal relations somemore. yay yay! LOVEEEEE. my lecturer is good. haha. but a bit funny. haha! :)

saw in the mood for love for film art today. wah sehh if im gonna write an essay about that, its challenging. haha. another one of those arty films. must interpret like crazy. haha. never mind. i can do it! lots of deadlines coming up in 2 weeks time!!! better start doing now so i dont need to pia.

had philo consultation today for like 20 mins. and it was damn productive!!! haha. i cleared all my doubts and now, its just a miracle that i could get the initial grade i got. haha. i hope i understood the concepts correctly and my revised paper can get an A plus!! jia you!! :)

finally back!!!

2008-10-09T14:55:00.002+08:00

i know i haven blogged in ages but im finally back!!! woohooo. my mid-term tests are finally over. YES. today i woke up at 11am. haha slept for 12 hours. i feel super shiok and relaxed when i woke up. and now its going to rain so the wind is damn nice!! yay! :) for the past 2 weeks, ive been mugging like crap. its like a levels all over again. haha. except that its worse. cause for 2 weeks, ive been sleeping at 2am and waking up at 8am TO MUG. plus, im super not a morning person. its one thing to wake up early and another thing to wake up early AND MUG. haha.

my psych, film art and socio tests are over! and i passed up my psych term paper and my first draft of philo term paper. :) i hope they turn out well!!! :) have rarely been going out these few days cause when i study, i REALLY study. haah. missed my crime night on tuesday, but lucky! got some kind soul tape for me. :) haha. on tuesday night, i called mcdelivery at 11 plus. haha couldnt help it! super hungry and didnt feel like eating anything else. SHIOKK.

ohh i got back my philo first draft and its not bad. :) yay. so now im studying but no longer at a maniacal pace. :) i hope i get to go out and have fun soon!!! i dont wanna just keep studying. haha. so anyone wanna go out? as long as its budget fun, i dont mind!! haha. :)

played tennis in school with shang last friday. woo. I LOVE TENNIS. haha the piak piak sound when you hit the ball. i just love it. :)

sleepy and maybe sick?

2008-09-21T00:50:00.002+08:00

AIYOHHH. THE WEATHER IS CRAZILY HOT THESE FEW DAYS. what sia. if dont on air con, you either get heat stroke or can bathe in sweat. haha. im kinda coughing and having a cold again. but no problem! i think its just a minor thing. haha. cause i can still concentrate and study. basically i should seriously be like mugging now. but i think after blogging this, ill go sleep. cause playing badminton tomorrow. :) but maybe just a relaxed game. hey get well soon k??? :)

anyway, its kinda officially the one week hols. but guess what? ITS IRONICALLY CALLED RECESS WEEK when it should be called MUGGING WEEK. all the tests and tons and tons of readings. and a hard philo term paper that i have absolutely no ideas what to write about. and must finish writing 6 pages about something I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHAT ABOUT in a few days. WOW. talk about uni life being not so rigorous ehh?

mugging week is a busy week! have almost something planned for everyday already. outings with people i haven met or hung out with for a long time!!! but. wheres the studying gonna come in?? i think every space i get i squeeze lor. haha. shucks. uber sleepy.

GOOD LUCK IN YOUR EXAMS ALL MY TUITION KIDS.
and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS YOU POK!!!! haha. :)

loud people.

2008-09-16T13:38:00.005+08:00

i seem to like blogging on my laptop rather than on my desktop at home these days. maybe its cause its taking a break from studying. ohh wells. recess week is next week, but i think its gonna be equally busy.

just went for my philo tutorial just now. it was not bad. :) although some parts quite chim. haha. my class was damn small! like 9 people only?? but okay la. got some interesting characters. still have no idea what to write for my philo term paper though. but im currently studying for my chemistry test later. haha.

took 151 to school today. and AMAZINGLY, its damn empty!! whahhaha. shiok man. sat down all the way and plus, got empty seats all the way and!!! it only took 30 mins to reach. cause the bus rarely stopped at any stops and didnt have to waste time in waiting for inconsiderate people to squeeze. :) so i might take bus more. haha. just that whenever im in heels, then ill take mrt. balancing in heels on the bus is a CRAZY task. haha. especially if you dont have a solid pole to hold on to.

chemistry chemistry,
i kinda hate you. :)

couch potato!!

2008-09-13T21:54:00.002+08:00

okay. i got a TEENY WEENY bit of time so im typing this post. haha. i actually just came online to print my psych mid-term question paper. ehh ehh hardworking sia. :) haha. waiting for S.W.A.T to start. woohooo. soonnn. haha. i just finished watching walking tall. wah man. NICE. haha.its like kinda violent and everything but! i just like the plot. uncovering evil people and the nice one get maligned then in the end come out triumphant! haha. totally hollywood style. BUT. still love it! :) thats why i hate film art i might add. haha.

ohh wells thought today would be a busy and tiring day but! actually one of my tuitions got cancelled and my date with cheryl at the long gang got postponed too! :( i hope her grandma gets well. rahhh. wasted. today never rain somemore. and i got the supplies!! haha. SPARKLERS. ooooooooo. :) i cant wait to throw them into the drain. haha. as always. CHEERS TO OUR 13 YEARS FRIENDSHIP GIRL!! :)

i basically sat on the couch for like 3 hours doing my readings and watching tv at the same time. haha. i put everything near me so i dont have to walk around. haha. too lazy. especially when my heavy psych book is on my lap. TOTALLY DONT FEEL LIKE MOVING.

shucks. S.W.A.T start already! ill blog another time! :)

feelings fluctuation

2008-09-11T13:20:00.002+08:00

okay! im sort of contented with school again. haha. my posts are like back to back contradictions. the headaches are gone!! :) think i was too stressed and never sleep enough. currently studying in SOC. haha. basically almost every part of nus is study-able which is very good!!! haha. dont ever need to be scared that cannot find place study. just to be random. OHH I LOVE TYPING ON MY LAPTOP. THE KEYPAD FEELS NICE. haha. yay. :) love it.

questions for my film art, philo and psych mid-term papers are out!! which means soon ill go into a writing essays frenzy. haha. like last time when i was doing my lit assignments. just camp in front of the com for 3 plus hours and type and re-read and type again. haha. woke up at 7 today. cause i got lecture at 9 in school about my philo paper topic. wahhh early siaaa. never mind. at least waking up at these kind of unearthly hours only happen to me once a week!! :D all my lessons are mostly late afternoon and evenings. lectures i mean. next week i got chemistry test!!! haha. so now mugging for that. dont know what kind of questions will come out yet. so im basically studying like a fly with no head (HAHA. DIRECT TRANSLATION FROM CHINESE).

tomorrow is kylie's farewell dinner!! aww. why does everybody seem to fly off during sept?? anyway, long time no guitar outing already. cant wait to meet everyone and catch up!! :)

last sunday, had exercise after a super long time!! woooo. played badminton with shang and his dad. wahh siann. felt so noob. haha. stamina sucks la. and my lazy nature forever shows up. haha. lazy to run after the ball and everything. must make this a weekly thing! so at least i do get some exercise. BUT I WANNA PLAY TENNIS TOOOOO. haha. and i have craving for k box!! can relieve a bit of stress. haha. ohh wells. think my life is mainly revolving around nus and tuition now. hmm. at least i think ill get a bit of break from tuition in oct and nov. ahhaa. cause their exams finishing soon. which leaves me more time to study!! yay. although my income will like stop short a while. haha.

i finished doing my fair share of psych experiments this sem!! yessss!!! finished before mid-term break. now dont need to worry about that already. and no more coming to school early just to do experiments. haha. :) 2 more weeks to my one-week break!! which im gonna spend mugging, exercising and giving tuition!! anyone wanna go out?? haha. can schedule under the exercise part. :) k box also can consider exercise!! voice exercise. haha. :D

lantern festival is this sunday!! CHERYL, OUR DATE! YAY. haha. meet at the long gang!!!! :)

life is good with you around.
celebration! :)

uber tired.

2008-09-04T14:05:00.003+08:00

okayy. this is the first time im blogging in nus. haha. im actually studying in central library but my eyes get so tired that i decide to take a rest. the irritating thing is i haven studied for very long!!! dunno whats happening to me nowadays, sometimes haven even start studying already feel too tired. then get constant headaches. and on monday, even felt like vomitting. am i too stressed? think i really need to relax and do stuff i enjoy and sleep more rather then whole day thinking about my readings and my experiments. ill go crazy soon if this carries on. migrains the whole time. cant even live my life properly. this sucks. :(

anyways, think my life is quite packed. IM NOT TALKING ABOUT MY TIMETABLE. haha. with tuitions and everything. think ill take a one month break during nov when i prepare for my exams and when the kids are having hols. tomorrow is gonna be one hell of a packed day!!!!! 2 lectures 2 tuts. and GLORY'S FAREWELL. goshh. the time has come. 3 of my friends are gonna fly off. this totally sucks. i hope i dont cry too badly. this weekend is gonna be super packed for me. :( i need to find time to exercise soon!!!!! if not ill become super unhealthy! rahhhh.

whoever said that jc is the most rigorous thing in your life? and that uni compared to that is smooth sailing? walow ehh. i feel like killing that person. okay la. maybe its the travelling here and there that saps up my energy also. STUPID MOTION SICKNESS! and i hate 151! SO MANY FREAKING PEOPLE ALWAYS TAKE IT! haha. boooooo. im so gonna take mrt permanently from now onwards. mrt mrt to school and back.

anyway, yesterday when i was on the train. wahh these 3 girls sitting in front of me gossiped about this other girl tremendously loudly. they started talking about how being friends with her is just a facade. they say they think she really very yucky. and her boyfriend very ugly and stuff. walow. it took a lot of me to not stare at them. but i was seriously disgusted. this is the ultimate two-faced bitchy people some girls can be. its lucky i dont have friends like that. ohh wells. travelling on the mrt is funny sometimes. lots of trivial things can happen.

getting used to going tutorials alone. only those where i dont have friends with me. haha. and eating alone is okay already. last time i dont like cause feel very loner-ish. RIGHT BEST FRIEND!!! BUT heh heh. i realise i eat SUPER SUPER FAST when im alone!! haha. 9 minutes for one plate of mixed rice and i wasnt even rushing. i was damn shocked. haha. :)

okay. think i should go back to reading my philo textbook for tomorrow's lecture. haha. notice i dont blog very regularly nowadays. normally when i get home after school and tuition, i get so tired that i just crash. -_- dont really like this kind of life. too tired for me to enjoy stuff and i really wanted to enjoy mugging in uni. GOD. PLEASE STOP MY HEADACHE!!!! and im hungry all the time nowadays!!! even after i eat, i dont feel anything. -_-''' macham like got something in my stomach eating whatever im eating. ohh gosh. not really true right? haha. i just need to get back to odd week then ill rest more and ill see what happens. i hate having a weak constitution. I WANT MY ENTERTAINING LIFE BACK!!!!!!

mel is very tired.

thank god for valuable people in school. :)
at least life doesnt suck that totally.

settled down!

2008-08-25T00:01:00.002+08:00

its midnight! i gotta be sleeping soon. :)

wooo. finally settled down to uni life. think ive become accustomed to it. yay. :) today finally spent like 2 hours online doing non-school stuff. just surfing blogs, going friendster. haha. i realise all the uni people's friendster are all totally untouched. haha. and everyone's blogs are complaining very hectic and cannot catch up or being super stressed. haha. ohh wells. ive ceased being stressed and starting to enjoy. BUT. my readings are still behind. haha. ohh wells.

studying hard. working hard to give tuition to earn money. most of my tuition kids are gonna have exams soon. so i guess ill arrange extra lessons. ohh wells. haha. im still glad i can find the time to enjoy myself. :)

next week tutorials start. but haha. 3 out of 4 of my tutorials fall on even week. and next week is odd week. soooo. i guess i still have lots of blank spaces! but i signed up for 2 psychology experiments. haha. being the subject. ohh wells. its this research participant programme thing thats part of the curriculum. haha.

tomorrow is another new day!! :D please let me finish my film art readings. haha. *cross fingers*

happy. :)

2008-08-20T21:40:00.002+08:00

FINALLY back to blog. and this time the pessimism is off! haha. im finally starting to love uni life. the lectures are having real value now haha. and i start to feel intellectually stimulated. :D but it kinda sucks when you learn hard stuff when my brain is still befuddled cause im still on medication. rahh. one week plus already. had to get stronger medication today. haha. doc offered a 2 day MC. and guess what i said? DONT NEED. haha. wah seh first time man. last time whenever i could skip school, i was happy to do so. EVEN IF i was a guai, hardworking and nerdy student. haha. but now, even though my school is like IN THE WEST. and i travel one hour plus to get there. WHICH MAKES ME WANT TO VOMIT BLOOD WHEN I GO JUST FOR A 2 HOUR LECTURE. haha. im still happy and quite willing.

tutorials gonna start next week. and THANK GOD I GOT ALL THE SLOTS I WANTED!! whahahahha. yay! :) i have a 4 day week. thursday no school! woohooo. :) on the down side, it means i have time to give 2 tuitions so technically, its not really a break day. rahhhh. never mind. i believe that things will look up next sem. and i probably look at it a bit negatively now cause i have no energy to pia when im in a sickly mood. dont be too envious. heh. i seriously think fass students have 4 day week so that they use that day to catch up on all the readings. which is like PILING UP LIKE CRAZY!!! im kinda behind on my readings. anddd. RAHH SOCIO IS LIKE SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND AT FIRST!! the course pack. haha. but ohh wells. many other people also complaining on the forum so i dont feel too stupid. :)

uni life is REALLY hectic. haha. lots of stuff have to do. check mail which like piles up every HOUR. haha. go IVLE and check out workbin and workspace and stuff. and im printing a lot of stuff!!! so totally have to try out the printing room in library. haha. ohh wells. shang said its cheap.

anyway, went into central library to sit down and study for the first time today!! anddd its damn cool. SO MANY TABLES that im not scared next time cannot find place. and its super conducive!! haha. love it. :) the funny thing is theres this chat point where you can use your handphone and its designed in such a way like they are transparent telephone booths with sound proof glass doors. basically you go in, close the door and start talking. IN TOTAL PERFECT VIEW OF EVERYONE STUDYING. hahaahha. practically like MODEL like that. advertising handphone or something. haha.

laptops are sooo heavy to carry around. :( like the first intense excitement when i bought it died off. haha. im only bringing it for chem lecture now. haha. maybe next time when i have tutorials or when i actually stay longer in school then i bring. gradually starting to get into dynamics of uni life. see lots of people around! but haiz. its basically quite a loner life if you dont have a fixed group of people to hang around with.

thank god i have you.

it aint all i thought it would be.

2008-08-14T13:00:00.002+08:00

i guess uni really aint all i thought it would be. especially on tuesdays where i only have one chem lecture, since tutorials haven started yet. and i gotta travel all the way down just for a one and a half hour lecture then back all the way down to toa payoh for tuition. haha. kinda sucks yeah? and i think the introductory lectures are all kinda boring so far.. i guess sociology was sort of the best? film art was okay too. the rest had no real value bahh. but i believe it will get better! psychology dont disappoint me! :(

hmm. i kinda miss the class system where i have like one specific class cause if you go alone for lectures, its like the only time you interact is during lecture (WHICH IS VERY LITTLE) then after you go out the doors, its to separate ways. haiz. i hope tutorials are different. im really a social creature. although i can retreat into my shell and become a mugger, i just feel uni life isnt supposed to be like that.

furthermore, i cant go for my beloved tennis trials. cause the trainings clashes with my psych lecture and tuition. im quite upset. and i dont know what cca i should take. can dont take and only take in second sem? rahhh. haiz.everything is quite uncertain.and i just spammed 200 over bucks on textbooks. haha sian. so expensive. and this is only for one sem. haha. i better read finish every single one and do super well. if not, ill totally feel like im wasting my time. haha.

ohh wells. thurdays are my free days. if my balloting goes totally my way, my thursdays are my totally free day. :) please let everything get better. but on the bright side, i see some loves in school. so that sort of makes up for everything. :)

tonight gonna go out with sa gang! :) shucks. glory's sort of farewell dinner. :( MS not coming again. haiz. i miss her a lot. whats the use of being in the same faculty when i haven even met her yet?

medicine makes me kinda drowsy.

hold my hand and dont let go.

2008-08-12T23:41:00.001+08:00

i guess uni life aint all i thought it would be.

maybe its just cause im sick. it throws me into my emo mood and makes me feel too dependent. i hate it.

too free

2008-08-01T13:39:00.002+08:00

haha. if you see me blogging almost every day or every other day. something must be wrong. yes! ive got the too free syndrome. haha. okay. people who are super busy might wanna slap me now. so i wont expand on that idea. haha.

been staying at home the past few days. rahh. module bidding! now is closed bidding and im super nervous!! :( please please let me get what i want. why is psych so popular?? :( haha.

IM SCARED!! I DO NOT WANT TO GO OUT OF THE HOUSE UNTIL BIDDING ENDS. so i can change my bids and stuff. BUT. i gotta give tuition. RAHHH. so i got another one hour plus to see the bidding. then im just gonna leave it to fate. haiz.

HELP!

QET results!!!!

2008-07-30T14:46:00.003+08:00

WHAHAHAHAHA. YAY!!!!! i didnt do too badly for QET! therefore im exempted from taking english support modules. yay!! hahaha. which means i can take lit. AND. i dont have to waste energy taking extra english modules. wahh damn happy!! haha. praise god! :)

its really quite a surprise seeing as i didnt finish my compo and my last sentence was damn abrupt. BUT. all's well! :D okay. tomorrow is bidding time. please please let me get what i bid for. *cross fingers*

my day has been slack so far. haha. lay on my air-conditioned room bed and read book just now. damn shiok! haha. haven done that for ages already! :) i hope i can play tennis tonight!!!!

hmm. now i no longer feel guilty or super sian when i have days of nothing to do. haha. cause its like i tell myself these are the last few days before i enter hectic uni life! haha. i think im quite sadistic. i cant wait to throw myself into the super busy and probably stressful lifestyle! since FASS requires lots of readings, next time all my travelling time will probably be my reading time! :) maybe after one month of that, i might start to complain. haha. but now, IM TOTALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT! :D

yesterday was el family outing! except for sarah. rahhh. we rarely meet up like that! haha. everybody is just soo busy! but we got to meet more often already!! rach is going overseas! :( anyway, we went minds cafe and haha. went crazy playing the board games. haha. its ladies night! so yay! board gaming free! ended up only paying 5 bucks. LOVED IT! haha. we screamed like mad. UGLY UGLY! haha. emmy's SCORPION. TSK. hahha. and HYENA! what is that man! hahah. :) loved hanging out with you guys just like that. moving forward in life doesnt mean having to put behind the things in your past, if you want to, it can also mean weaving past and present together and redefining priorities. :)

ill always be walking on the same path with you
side by side.
even if sometimes, your pace picks up
and i fall behind,
whenever you're tired,
just turn around
and ill always be there. :)

2008-07-29T14:03:00.002+08:00

yay. officially woke up at 11 today!! WHAHAHAHA. my life is good! :) aah wells. this is the cushioning period until i enter uni then ill be happily busying myself like mad. haha. later giving tuition then going for el family outing! woohoo.

yesterday registration was fast! :) god is on my side. :D at first i kinda freaked out cause i forgot to bring my offer letter. lucky someone gave me the courage to ask whether its okay. haha. AND IT WAS! the whole thing took only one hour. so bingo! i got my student card, my ez link card and MY LAPTOP!! WHAHAHA. love that thing. :) now thinking whether i need to get laptop accessories. do i? hmm. anyway, signed up for a few cca's at the matric fair. some is cause i cant bring myself to say no im not interested. haha. see they like quite poor thing. anyway, after tons of walking here and there. I FINALLY FOUND THE TENNIS BOOTH! :D my ultimate. but dieee. the trainings are like monday and wed nights. i dunno whether my academic and tuition timetable will clash. i hope everything works out by itself. its competitive tennis. so i gotta go for tryouts. *crosses fingers* lets hope i get in. that means i gotta start training now. cause i confirm become rusty already. after not playing for so long. if i dont get in, maybe ill try in second sem again. after all, i hope they have tryouts every sem. my timetable next sem wont be as bad as first sem. WHY DID I TAKE SO MANY TUITIONS?? rahhhh.

thursday is module bidding time. oh god. please let me successfully bid for whatever modules i want. after all, i seriously spent time planning them. haha. im gonna camp in front of my com on thursday watching the bidding thing. haha. i think it would feel like im watching the stock market or something. haha. aah wells. think my internet bill will shoot through the roof this month. but never mind! when uni starts, i dont think ill have time to use the internet on my desktop. so its okay! :)

i super hope the tennis outing tomorrow night is on! i need as much training as i can get. -__-

being busy wont push us apart.
it will only make us cherish even more the times we have together. :)

sleepyyy.

2008-07-27T23:58:00.002+08:00

its been one week since i blogged. and hectic hectic! haha. im so sleepy now. but ohh wells. just printed out nus form. TOMORROW IS MY REGISTRATION DAY!!! YAY. then ill get my matric card and become a real student!! whahaha. 10% off jap food. here i come!!! okay. i have no idea why im so excited. but. im finally entering another phase of my life! :) hope everything goes smoothly tomorrow. ive almost triple checked everything!!!!

went for combined camp on monday till wed. haha. URSA!!! it was kinda fun. :) made lots of new friends. and rahh. almost DIED during amazing race. haha. going to 3 wrong places before we arrived at the correct one. walow! hahaha. anyway, i think amazing race does wonders to my fitness level. first time guy say i quite fit lehh! what sia. haha. i was damn shocked! lol. looks like the rest of my uni life i dont need purposely go exercise already. everyday climb stairs here and there. walk up slope. tsk. especially nus fass!!! haha. imagine if im late for lecture then i get somewhat lost. SCARY. i dont wanna think how cham i would become. haha. anddd. I ATE SUBWAY! haahha. yes me and SUBWAY. surprised ehh. but still, im anti-subway. GO AWAY. hmm. after the camp, my impression of ntu kinda changed. its actually quite nice. :) despite the obvious fact that its really quite ulu! but other than that, the campus is not bad. haha.

on sat, went for sa class outing!!! WOOOOO. haha. 18 ppl turned out! thats really good. lol. one of our rare really class outing. rather than clique outings. :) missed the guys. anyway, just hung out and it was nice just catching up. stupid truth or dare. haha. but. CONGRATS MS DE SILVA!!!! haha. aww. im so gonna attend the wedding next year. :) in my church! i rarely get to attend weddings but i think its quite nice. heh. :) its so romantic to migrate to another country for love. haha. shes right. you just have your own priorities right.

today checked out nus modules with shang! haha. stare at the laptop and thinking hard about bidding and everything. lol. haven finished checking. think im gonna continue on tues. CAUSE TOMORROW IS A BUSY DAY! :D and thursday is bidding day already!! rahhhh.

IM FINALLY GONNA GET MY LAPTOP TOMORROW!! OOH. EXCITED EXCITED. heh. another essential for an nus student check! :) im gonna go crash now.

youre my everything.

sleep away your problems!

2008-07-20T13:40:00.002+08:00

sleep away your problems and anxiety! it actually really works. i dunno about you guys but haha. sleep always makes me feel better. that is of course if i can sleep first. currently really terrible problems deprive me of sleep. haha. :) its not really a self-denying escape. its a recharging of batteries and a whole new perspective. and a letting go of your stubborness. after all, if you believe that things are not as bad as it seems, theres always a way out. :) its just a matter of perspective. when the thing first comes blown up in your face, you will feel the total intensity or hopelessness of the matter. its natural. let the feelings flow through you. its important to totally feel the emotional rawness and pain. the first step to the healing process. :)

ohh wells. went for my medical check up on wed. haha. for like 2 hours! wahh going alone was like damn SIANNN. haha. so many different stations. rahh. then some people were like really quite evil. but okay la. I UNDERSTAND. they've been there like so long almost the whole day, gonna meet thousands of people. and they REPEAT THE SAME SENTENCES FOR EVERY PERSON. so thats quite poor thing. haha. like robotic machines already. i think the urine test was GROSS though. ahha. my first time! guys totally have it better. haha. okay. no details cause its gross. haha. LUCKY I DONT HAVE TO TAKE BLOOD TEST. haha. phew. only blood pressure. when i see tons of people holding the alcohol thing against their arm, i was like shit. please let me dont have to take. haha. poor nursing or medical people! yay. hmm. saw tons of unfamiliar faces, a few people i know! cant imagine they're ALL gonna be same faculty as me. its like even after 4 years, ill have hundreds of people that i never see before for sure. hmm.

ooh on tuesday went back to sa with pei hui and char to get a level cert!!! haha. but feel quite out of place. when we're the only colour in a sea of white shirts. like super obvious to see. and people will stare at you. haha. i hate being the centre of attention sometimes. you feel so self conscious! haha. hmm. didnt really spend a lot of time there. then went to ps and went shopping! woooo. haha. bought lots of stuff. :) GSS is ending anyway. and i rarely spend. haha. so thrifty!! yes yes. haha. best friend thought it was my retail therapy! lol. wahh, never saw best friend in ages. miss her sooooo much!!!! haha. TSK. going for 4 camps. and one every week. like that how to meet best friend!!! RAHHHH. anyway, it was just fun sitting down talking like old times. i officially set friday as the SA clique day! hahaha. ITS IMPORTANT. STICK TO IT EVERYBODY! and pray that our timetable dont eat up our time together. haha. rahhh.

on friday, it was my QET. RAHH. i think i did super badly okay. still recovering. haha. no talking about it! haiz. haha. ill just factor in my english module then. i didnt even finish my essay and i totally wasnt in the mood for an exam. and its on something i suck at!!!! BIOTECHNOLOGY. walow. nothing to write can? when i read it, i felt like it was a primary school essay. HAIZ. haha. but anyway, after that quite fun. getting lost in nus with shang.i love nus but im kinda very used to having a super familiar school environment. one like nus, forever wont be able to explore the whole place. always will have unfamiliar places. ohh wells. ill stay around my fass and school of business places. haha.

in the night, went to meet my dear friends!!!! hahahha. hanger, glory, rach, peewee, char and dale! ohh wells. went to astons at the cathay. haha. coincidence. :) astons is quite nice. :) not all steaks. lol. and the price is affordable too! yay. :) best, no GST!! anyway, just sat together and laughed and did stupid things. it was fun! long time no see racheL! ahha. finally back from her mission trip with TONS AND TONS of photos!! haha. MOANER MUST MEET AGAIN OKAY! :)

:( yesterday was my last day at kumon. haha. 8 months ive been working there. wah sounds super long right? ohh wells. said goodbye to some kids. hmm. i guess ill just drop by sometimes!!

gonna go for another camp next week! ntu nus combined camp. haha. walow. i suddenly sound like some camp enthusiast. but IM NOT. haha. my feelings towards camps haven changed yet. but this time, i totally never feel the anxiety la! walow. haha. i hope it comes close to psych camp. :) then ill be happy. haha. haven started packing yet. going out shopping later! :D i better come back a bit earlier to pack my camp bag. need to meet at 9am at nus tomorrow. sian. haha.

this coming week is a busy week! camp, psych camp chalet, tuitions, possibly k box, and meeting sa class!!! wahh. BUSY BUSY! hahhaha. :)

the only constant in my life.

EMOOOO.

2008-07-19T00:05:00.002+08:00

i love walking in the rain.
nobody can differentiate between the tears and raindrops on your face.
sometimes, i wonder whether im moving in circles.
always thinking im making good progress! :)
but i guess reality is just a really mean kid.
what you reap does not always equal to what you sow.
in fact, it super rarely does.
i dont even get the chance to live in self-denial.
desperate helplessness overwhelms you when you find out that,
everything you've done might possibly amount to nothing after all...

updates!

2008-07-14T11:34:00.002+08:00

think i cried last night in my sleep. rahh. my right eye is a little swollen and it feels unnatural. CRAPS. this happens so often. haha. anyway, its updates time! :) these few days been taking my free time exploring nus website. haha. thinking about modules and stuff. its gotten me super excited about uni life! haha. yay. finally can study again after an agonizing 8 months wait? YES. IM A NERD. :)

anyway, last wed, went partyworld to sing with shang hx yumei and her friend. haha. yay!! went all the way to tanjong pagar one. haha. ohh wells it was fun nonetheless! :) singing and standing on the chair is always fun! haha. too bad i didnt sing my xin yue tuan songs. rahh. wasted. haha. i still prefer k box to partyworld! partyworld is so rigid. although there are more chips and fruits and everything. but still, the screen cuts off on time! okay maybe you can still sit in the empty room and sing using the music in the next room. but haha. thats retarded despo behaviour! haha. so next time, its k box! anyone wanna go?? :)

tuition has been on as usual. not complaining about it. haha. this week will be my last week at kumon though. gonna miss some of the small cute kids. rahh. cant believe uni life is really finally going to start! :D

ooh yesterday went gyming! haha with shang. SUPER LONG time never go gymming already. rahh. ohh. lucky never do any sit-ups. :) if not, ill have muscle cramps like crap today. haha. hmm. ohh wells i think tampines gym is super big and nice! hahaha. at least MUCH MUCH bigger than bishan gym. and the toilets are soo nice!! :) normally i dont like to bathe outside, but in this case, i totally wouldnt mind. haha. yay. and looking at the swimming pool through the gym windows was tempting. haha. the water slide looked so fun! :D think im gonna go gymming again soon!!!! :)

tired and happy! :)

2008-07-08T10:26:00.003+08:00

okay! i got back from psych camp on sat! haha. was super tired but very fun! i remember on sat itself when i was coming back from nus. wah sehh. my camp bag heavy like crazy! look like a bomb bag except that its white. and my hands were like shaking for carrying so long. i only had one thought in mind. haha. GET HOME QUICKLY TO DEPOSIT THEM. and i was so tired i nearly missed my mrt stop. haha. first time i really slept like nobody's business. normally ill still have some form of link to the outside world. haha. this time even when i wasnt listening to my mp3 i really conked out. haha. now i know how you feel! :)

seriously psych camp is the best camp ive ever went to, especially when i started off not knowing like 95% of the people. haha. every single day run here run there. tired like crazy. haha. the lactic acid in my muscles totally had no time to clear before new amounts build up. haha.but its good! increase my muscle tolerance level. and its good for me right? haha. first day i was quite worried at first. but all was fine. everyone in my group is super friendly and we just blended well together! haha. there were 8 freshies in my group. 7 girls, one guy. surprise surprise. haha. the ratio is always like that. lol. anyway, LOTUS POCUS rocks! :)

first day, we had wet games. wahh sehh i first time go to a camp that plays wet games on the first day especially when its a 4 day camp. haha. super fun! but super dirty. normally im the clean freak kind. haha. but oh wells dont care! play all out. and we came in first! yay. but due to too much abrasion, i had a swollen knee on the first day. SIAN. haha. but i didnt care la. rested for a while, put ice. and im up again! running up stairs, jumping here and there for amazing race and everything. i think when we went for the amazing race outside nus, the people confirm think we crazy. haha. running and charging like mad bulls. then do random actions and cheering to get extra points. haha. SIAO. but never mind! i was in the camp mood, not the self-conscious mood. haha.

i will never forget the fright night. walow. even when i know the ghost is human, its still damn freaky!!!! i was scared out of my wits. haha. blame it all on my fertile imagination! and haha. sze ying! equally scared of ghosts. haha. we go is court our own death! haha.

i dont wanna go into details. if i would, i would be typing until tomorrow. haha. i just loved the camp and all the friends i made in it. :) im glad i went. all the late night chatting in my room till 4am.( jolene, sze ying) our cool team spirit. haha. my toilet buddy joyce! hahah. :) love you guys! i totally wish we will stay in touch and hopefully be in the same tutorial class! we have to have more clan outings too!!! MY FALLEN ANGEL! hahha.

ohh wells, been playing and not working for so long. suddenly going to work again feel a bit cannot get accustomed. but ohh wells. its already july and one more month to uni life. YAY. its finally here! haha. now got a lot of nus admin stuff to do. haha. and thinking about all my modules. not to forget, my QET is next friday! walow. sian. haha. but at least got someone go with me. not so bad! hahha. please let me do well. i dont wanna take english module. haha.

think im going party world to sing tomorrow! yay! :) please let everything turn out alright! andd. dont let me get too tired today. what with tuition and working. and today, my bones season finale!!! aahhh. sad. :( lets hope theres a bones season 3 coming right up. cause CSI aint so exciting anymore. i want my MIAMI!!! :(

ohh shucks. i just realised i forgot to eat dinner yesterday!!! ohh ohh. no wonder i feel hungry now. anddd. IM GOING FIR CONCERT! yay. HAPPYYYY. :)

i'd be nothing without you.
you bring out the best in me.
youre the reason i live and breathe happily.

i miss youu.

2008-06-28T21:46:00.003+08:00

okay! today i worked at kumon for longg hours. haha. but amazingly, besides the frequent back aches, blurry eyesight from seeing and scanning too many numbers and words, i was still in a good mood! haha. yay. today there were many cute kids. but its super influx of a lot of kids! haha. thats why i had tons of marking to do. but at one point of time, i had 3 uber cute and different kinds of boys sitting in front of and beside me. yay! so happy. haha. mini eye candies! cause they have kinda short attention spans, so when i stare at them or ask are you doing your work? haha. their reactions are soo cute! haha okay IM BIASED. im totally not afraid to admit that. my tolerance level increases when im faced with cute kids. hey. its reality. haha. i think i like boys better than girls. they're a lot cuter. i prefer facing a cute boy rather than a pretty princess or dolly girl. haha.

and working long hours is fine. but imagining working long hours without food. haha. cause i didnt feel like eating breakfast in the morning. then i worked from 10 to 6.30. without eating anything. haha. well. practically it was like i was fasting. haha. and i wasnt super hungry till i felt like vomitting. haha. amazing. i never thought i could do it before. yeah okay dont scold me! rahh. i know its not good for my stomach. heh. im ending kumon soon?

yesterday went gluttons bay to eat with glory, peewee, hanger, char. ooohhh. i haven been in that place for really long! i think since jan. hhaa. with rich, dave, xf, linus and darren. wahh. we ordered lots of delicious stuff! wahhh damnn shiok. haha. carrot cake 2 plates. satay, fried chicken wings, mee goreng, hokkien mee. yay!!!! haha super heaty! but super shiok. plus, there was a band playing. haha. punk rock-ish. haha. soo uber good!!! haha. :) dave came to join us later. with his pretty sister! haha. we just hung around then went macs to eat ice-cream. aah wells. ohhh. forgot to mention the sadistic peewee and her new book! hahhahah. okay laa. the first 2 chapters are kinda interesting. just cause its something to do with my field! haha. :) psychology plus playing with the brain. plus regression. damn cool. but its totally the dark side of psychology. haha. thats why i say smart people totally have the potential to become scaryy criminals. anyway, PEI HUI! LETS HAVE OUR READ BOOK DAY SOON! :)

okay. my SAT scores just came out. i didnt do as well as i wanted to. HAIZ. okay la. i shouldnt kick myself about it too hard. after all, cramming half the book in 2 weeks is sick right? aah wells. never mind. since it wont impact me. but i dont think i did too badly either. okay la. haha. im totally not going to announce it on the widely accessible internet. haha.

tomorrow hopefully im gonna upgrade my plan and FINALLY get free incoming. i feel like im from the stone age or something. its like so basic already right? OKAY SHUT UP. THAT WAS RHETORICAL. haha. and im gonna get a new phone! dunno what yet. but hopefully a slide phone! haha. those are cooll. :)

next week is my psych camp! the packing list is in. and okay. im kinda nervous. but im always like that with camps. hmm. im a step closer to my uni life! haha. totally looking forward to it. :)

i miss you.

WHOAA.

2008-06-21T20:29:00.002+08:00

WHOAAA. i haven been blogging for 2 weeks!!! haha. seems like im really busy. which is true! cause i didnt touch my com for like one week. aah. im super uber sleepy now! rahhh. all cause yesterday watch vcd till super late. haha. MEET JOE BLACK! yay. i love that show. brad pitt is cuteee in that show. the only show where i really love him. haha. but i only watch 2/3 of it though. must finish it soon!! was so sleepy yesterday.

went for tuition yesterday morning and yay! it was good. its fascinating how different people can take different levels of stress. haha. i guess if you wanna do well in school or work, be a stress embracer or at least stress manager. haha. i think im the first one! :) DO NOT SAY IM CRAZY. its just the stress adds a challenging edge to everything you do, dont you think? anyway, dont know why but i think subconciously these few days im really tired. with tuition and lots of things on my mind. i think my soul is tired. haha. cause im not really physically or mentally tired, but im getting minor eyebags i think. AND I NEVER EVER GET THEM BEFORE!!! SERIOUS. no matter how tired i am, i never get eyebags, i just get triple eyelids. haha.

last night, met up with the guys at bugis fish and co. pei hui, best friend, char racoon, dale, shang me and guess who? MS!! GOSHHH. finally appeared after disappearing from the face of the earth. haha. just kidding la. rahh. the hot fudge chocolate cake wasnt as good as the one at PS. but i was full all the same. i guess these short meet-up sessions brings back old memories. all of us moving on to different things but if we can meet up once in a while, i guess its not that bad yeah? i think none of us have changed much. :) pei hui and her characteristic stoning like crazy face, MS and her funny jobs and her undeniable presence! haha. best friend and her laughter and her VERY FUNNY riddles. ( i think non-lit students can feel the strong sarcasm too) haha. char and dale's cute interaction. ohh wells. sometimes i feel transported back into sa's cafe. haha. but ohh wells im starting a new chapter of school life! one without uniform and you have to think what to wear everyday. aargh. haha.

speaking of that, ive decided to go for one camp! haha. the psychology camp. not the fass one. i think the psychology camp would suit me better. its smaller, i prefer it that way if i wouldnt know 99% of the people there. haha. and MS ahh. good luck with clubbing! hahahah. innocent you will get your eyes opened! lol. wells, i handed in the registration form today soo. on 2nd july im off camping! haha. its been longg since i went for a camp. i think the last one was the guitar camp. haha. around april or may? it was lets say. MEMORABLE. haha. cause i will never get STM on that one. dont know whether good or bad ahh. hahahaha. no laa. okay. i hope i get to meet nice and psychology crazy people. haha.

today at kumon, i was almost in a perpetual sleepy mood. aah. i guess when youre sleepy, you just naturally have this overwhelming tendency to want to grumble and say life's unfair. haha. its interesting having this state of mind. maybe i should research this? okay. crazy. haha. when i have time. i have still this whole pile of books on my table that i just renewed cause they were due and i didnt exactly have time to read finish them. haha. and every single one i wanna read so. i guess i just have to read faster! haha.

im so gonna sleep early tonight. i slept on the mrt standing today! rahh.

whats chocolate without fudge?
whats thunder without lightning?
whats fun without friends?
whats love without hurt?
whats me without you?

its over!!!

2008-06-08T00:36:00.003+08:00

WOOOO. my SATs are over!!! haha. okay actually im not thatt excited. its just okay lor over. i guess the best thing is i dont have to lug my 800 page book around anymore!! haha. its freaking heavy. rahhh. ANDD. i can start reading my big pile of NON-FICTION psychology books. haha. im becoming a freak? i actually prefer non-fiction to fiction now. of course still WITH THE EXCEPTION OF NEWSPAPERS, BORINGG STUFF. haha.

one word to describe my exam: COLD! the LT was like super super cold. and basically just sat in the same seat for like 4 hours. haha. its longer than any lecture or tutorial or exam. and the air con was blowing at me!!! i sniffed throughout the paper. :(

i think reading is really stimulating my brain to greater heights!! haha. cause i did some iq quizzes out of boredom today and i answered them correctly in record time!! whahahahaha. aah wells. was so tired when i finally reached home today that i slept in the afternoon. which i dont normally do. i just think its kinda weird to sleep in the afternoon cause i always feel like i wasted my time. especially when the sky was lit when you slept, but dark when you wake up. with the exceptions of when im sick that is. haha.

no more studying in the meantime!! gonna enjoy my next few weeks just working and reading. :)

love is giving someone the power to hurt you,
but trusting him not to. :)
there comes a time when youre so certain about something; someone
that no further reassurances or security is needed.
because you know that ultimately, even if the ending isnt what you want,
it aint gonna change your feelings.
that time is now. and forever.

catching up.

2008-06-04T21:08:00.002+08:00

you know what? i just blogged something and then suddenly internet explorer kinda got problem. and my whole post didnt get saved!! :( but never mind, since im taking a break from SATs, i can retype it. lets just hope my STM dont appear now. haha.

anyway, i think that having blogs is good. not only is it an outlet to release your emotions and feelings, you can catch up on your friends' lives too. cause sometimes your own life is too packed to enquire about your friends. blogs give you a summary of their life! happy, sad, confused, frustrating, overwhelming. every blog gives you a whirlwind of emotions! thats why i like to read blogs even when i dont feel like blogging.

rahhh. my SATs are in 3 days!!! GOSH. and i haven finished studying them. my dad was like saying WAHH. how come your book so thick? haha. at least that gave me a sense of satisfaction. im on page 668!! please applaud me. haha.now whenever i go out, waiting for bus or sitting on the mrt or bus, ill have this silver surfer notebook with me. open it and you will see CHIM VOCAB! like those you will say WHAT?! haha. im totally maximising my brain use!!! rahhh. anyway, after this sat, ill just read my psychology books like crazy! haha my lovees..

i gave tuition on tuesday! haha sec school maths. wahh damn happy and satisfied. this is the reason why i wanted to give tuition in the first place. it totally satisfies me intellectually and altruistically. double yay!

okay. thursday, friday and sat im super busy. haha. got my schedule all packed. happy!

fluctuating feelings.

2008-06-01T12:50:00.002+08:00

you know, it sucks when you make a decision one day and the next, you find it really hard to stick to it. but im getting past that phase. i guess its good. ive learnt to be more understanding. anyway, now im just stuffing myself with books and studying. just getting myself intellectually upgraded. after all, my SATs are like on saturday. 6 more days to go. and now, whenever i go to the library, i cannot resist borrowing a whole stack of books. i think im just a total nerd. immersing myself in reading shuts down my brain for other stuff.

on friday, went out with my dear friends for sakae buffet at night. char, dale, hanger, pei hui and best friend. yes. SAKAE. for a non-sushi person, im amazed i actually managed to eat till i was full, steering clear of sushis though. thanks pei hui for the treat! lots of funny things happened. what with the failed murderer games. the cute waiter and my bag. hanger and his scream then blame it on me. lol. it was funny. earlier in the morning went with best friend to woodlands library to just sit at the reference section and read books. cause she wanna read up on hotel management. aah wells. made friends with a sec school girl. haha. someone i probably will never see again in my whole life. but good. it was training for my communication skills with a complete stranger. ehh best friend ahh. what will you do without me? haha.

yesterday spent the whole day in national library just studying my SATs and reading books. wow. from 10am to 7.30pm. its been the first time ever since a levels that i sat down for so long to study. its quite funny when the library doors first opened that everyone chiong-ed in. and i mean really chiong to get tables. some even ran, while others behind were like dont run dont run! it was quite comical. but i think i studied too much. i came home sick. slept for 12 hours. felt much better. think im going to stuff myself with my SAT stuff soon.

when you love someone, you'll let him go if he wants to.
no matter how hard it is.

what if

2008-05-29T23:45:00.002+08:00

what if i said i cannot continue and that i want to give up?
what if i said im not strong enough?
what if i said i dont wanna prove anymore?

but that's just all what if's. cause in the end, after everything is over. i know i can. i know if its something i really want, ill fight till the end.

and this time, its something i really want. its going to worth the tears, the heartbreak, the upset. cause all the laughter, the happiness more than makes up for it.

upset.

2008-05-26T11:14:00.002+08:00

what do you do when youre upset? well. apparently lots of things is possible.

retail therapy
food therapy
movie therapy
intellectual therapy

wow. been there done that. no use. just give you fleeting moments of satisfaction.

i dont know what the freaking problem is this time. wait actually i do. how do i put in words? i seriously need someone who can understand.

its been a longg time.

2008-05-21T13:05:00.003+08:00

WHOAA. its been 2 weeks since ive blogged. haha. been really busy until i totally forgot about updating my blog. ohh wells. i am kinda still recovering from being sick! haha. a few days ago, i totally lost my voice! rahh. i think losing my voice is TONS worse than fever. haha. cause i cant stand not talking! haha. rahh. give people the chance to bully me!

andd. i realise my SAT is like in approximately 3 weeks time! and i haven touched it in ages!!! haha. thats why im staying home today! to chiong it. aah after i finish my long list of to-do's for today first. haha. i gotta go take passport photo later! so that i can send in my nus forms. haha. its for my student card so it better look good!!! haha.

now, tuesdays are my busy days. but i love being busy! haha tuitioning at toa payoh. then rushing back down to kumon to teach. yesterday i was so tired that i got back ache! haha. plus, the medicine made me feel drowsy so i slept in the afternoon for half an hour before i went for tuition. haha. but yay! thinking about my income makes me just a bit happy. haha.

last sat, went nus for fass day. ohh wells. the talks left me intellectually stimulated!! haha i cant wait to start studying and bid for my modules! and ohh wells i now have a totally different take on sociology. haha. i realise its not as boring as i thought it was! haha. of course the lecturer being young and funny helped a lot too. haha. so i think now my ideal combi is double majoring in psychology and business and minoring in sociology. ehh i dont even know whether im allowed to do so many things. haha. and whether or not, ill be killing myself with my hectic timetable. BUT. if stress is the only reason to deter me, its not a reason at all! haha. i embrace stress! whahahha. anyway, MS and me stayed at the bookshop for a while flipping through textbooks and reading. haha. so exciting!! but the textbooks are like freaking expensive. CRAP. uni education is really expensive man. if i wanna go overseas and do masters, i better do super well and get scholarship! haha.

last friday, after tuition, went to hang out with dave and darren to talk for a while. haha. guys really almost talk about army all the time!! haha. it makes me feel so lucky to be a girl! ahhaha. now got many nice movies! haha. tsk. this period of time when im saving up always have so many temptations. sales everywhere. but whats the use when i dont have money for sales?!?! hahahha. then at night, went timbre with shang and friends. i really like chilling with a live band. i wanna go INDOCHINE sometime! haha. anyone wanna hang out there? even though ill feel the pinch cause of the drinks. rahhh. haha.

anyway, i went for interview at yen's tuition centre last week. its just opposite my house! wahh sehh. i really hope i get the job. then it will be so convenient! haha. and even if my classes are really late, its okay. and i totally dont have to waste transport fees. but they have a whole long list of to be interviewed candidates. so i dont think i have a huge chance. and i dont have experience of group tuition yet anyway. i feel that this year i try a lot of new things! haha. i mean i couldnt have imagined myself giving home tuition last time. cause i didnt dare but now im doing it! and i dont have the butterflies in my stomach anymore! but there goes my safe uni life revolving in my own world and only studying for myself. hahaha.

anyway, on 9 may, went back to sa for guitar concert! haha. i think this year's one was like better than that of our year. confirm. haha. and if i was a guy, ill like yi qi that kind of girl. haha. just damn cool and talented. and mr wan was so funny!! haha. he grew skinnier and almost cannot recognise him from afar! but WHOA. his singing blew me away. haha. i didnt know he could sing! hahha. but it was a nice way to end a concert. anyway, caught up with a few people. jia lin, meifung, hanger, alana, pei hui. haha. our seniors too! aiyes, i just miss the guitar practices. how we chiong-ed like mad for SYF and guitar concert. haha. i can safely say i didnt have any regrets. i lived my jc life fully. with lots of tears, laughter, anguish, excitement. everything. :)

also celebrated pei hui's birthday that day! haha. at marina hot plate culture. why do i keep thinking its hot pot? haha. its this buffet thingy. that in the end, super expensive!!! rahh. haha. got together with char, best friend, MS and pei hui. enjoyed ourselves just eating and eating. had our own steamboat pot which is damn cool. haha. and also the non-refillable ice lemon tea! which tastes weirddd. haha. damn funny. MS and her pouring water into glass antics and saying stupid manager DAMN LOUD when he was just behind. hahhaahha!! damn funny. after that went esplanade rooftop to pei char for her band audition. aah wells. everything was cool. i love hanging out like that. i hope we stay together no matter what. no matter how far apart we may become.

i had a scaryy dream yesterday. haha that i wasnt in the same tutorial class as MS! that im all alone. aaaahhh. i scared la. but its okay! i just pray that we will be in the same class.

okay. im off to do the other things on my to-do list! before i catch a movie tonight. haha. :)

money money!!

2008-05-07T13:12:00.002+08:00

rahh. now im in the earning money mood! haha. soo, i hope i get some tuition assignments. i guess if i really do get some, my former vision of purely studying and having cca in nus will be smashed. haha. cause i have to commit to my tuition too. but aiyah. that one august then talk. hopefully ill be able to arrange my schedule such that i got time to work hard and chiong for my studies and also, got time to play tennis to relieve stress and for fun. and then can earn money by teaching tuition. haha. im soo gonna only take teaching assignments near my house or those that got direct bus. if not, i diee. BUT WHY ALL THE GOOD PAYING JOBS ARE ALWAYS FAR EAST AND FAR WEST? haiz. if only i stayed there, my income will be steady and stable! hahaa.

the weather is getting abit better these days. it actually starts raining for a while then got wind. VERY GOOD! the hot weather just makes me very fan..

im on a total budget mood! haha. so anyone asking me to go out, please make it either super budget or dont need to pay! :) which means nice treats by nice people?? hahaha. but ahhhhh. i have a super long shopping list. this happens when you procrastinate and this happens when everybody's birthday is suddenly so close to each other!!! rahhhhh! HELPPP.

god. please just let all my stuff work out by themselves. the timing i mean. haha.

looks like my uni social life wont be that exciting ahh. haha. busy busy. NEVER MIND! hahaha. at least die die, i also got MS in the same faculty and school. haha. we can be loners together!! haha.

updates

2008-05-05T12:26:00.003+08:00

okay. i got accepted into nus fass. haha. so i guess its nus for me!! im finally realizing my goal and dream that ive always wanted. but dont have the exhilarating feel ahh. think i waited too long. haha. same feeling like when i got back my a's results. but ohh gosh. the package is like super thick!!! haha. got lots of things to do before i get enrolled into nus. and its like if never do any of those things, counted as you give up your place. wahh sehh lucky they have a checklist. if not i would feel super insecure. haha. 4th august is the day i finally go back to school life!! :)

rahh. i hope peeweee and yinx get into nus fass too!! its just soo weird when someone is missing from us. haha. best friend!! i dont wanna be countries away from you!! rahhh. haiz. but make your own decision lor. ill just spam your email inbox everyday if i have to. haha.

yesterday was a great day! :)

on sat, went esther's cafe with best friend. haha. for AZURE performance! wooo. i love them and *coughs* hahahha. ehh ehh. ms concocts cool drinks thats super nice!!! hahaha. my green apple sweet dreams. ohh wells. had fun just chilling there like that.

haha. friday was a longgg day. went shang's house then went to esplanade to meet char, dale, peewee, hanger and chinpin! and jason. haha. it was damn cool. cause we just permanently chilled at the rooftop. haha. ate chippies. IT WAS MY FIRST TIME!! haha. and it was super good but i think it contributed to my semi sore throat now. of course the irritatingly hot weather plays a big part!!! WHEN IS THE WEATHER GOING TO BE NICE AGAIN?! we ate chippies in peace and chatted till this giant ant which was said it was a lizard/cockroach came along. haha. we went crazy. cause the light was super dim so cannot see what it is!! haha. and then after that situation, THE REAL COCKROACH came along! wahh siao. cockroaches are the scariest thing on earth!!! haha. so we migrated onto the grass patch. the super prickly and itchy kind. hahhaha. and my nose became itchy! anyway, dale and jason just played songs on the guitar while we sang. haha. dale's guitar is soo ooh-able. haha. pro ahh! haha.then nearing late at night, everybody went crazy!!! hahaha. hanger started to improvise WEIRD SONGS. haha. laughed like crap. so fun!! :) it seems like a norm now to go SAC every friday. hahaha. but its fun.

okay. ill start doing some of the pre-uni must do things now. haha. while typing this entry, i suddenly confirmed i wanna go nus. at first i was still thinking whether to go smu not. cause i like the feeling of being able to choose. but i think if i go smu, a lot of people will scream at me. haha. sooo. nus it is! and plus, it is my goal. :)

happy day!

2008-04-30T00:11:00.002+08:00

haha wahhh. shiok. finally bathed a long relaxing shower and now my whole mind and body can start to rest. haha. waiting for my hair to dry, ill blog about this wonderful day today. haha. super fun!! yay.

met best friend and peewee in the afternoon. haiz. ms suddenly cannot make it. wasted. haha. anyways, we went kallang leisure park! rahh. in the morning i got a super bad cold, kept sneezing and sneezing. had to eat panadol. went to eat at koufu. haha. so cute! the whole place had this sporty theme. like soccer balls hanging and basketball with hoops like fans. we sat in the soccer ball chair. haha. which is super hard to get out of. but wasted we dont have camera!!! aaahhhh. mine no batt. yinx never bring. aah wells. and it was the most expensive mixed rice stall i ever went to, a bit only then the price is 4.40. walow. but dunno why the queue still soo long. haha. we saw this child actress that looked like a guy. hmm. i dunno why but i dont make a fuss when i see celebrities around. its just. ohh look isnt that the actor or whatever? then ill cease to be excited and carry on doing my stuff. haha. i mean whats the big fuss all about really? :P

after that, we went bowling!! yay! i haven gone bowling IN AGES. we took a side lane and we played 3 games. my score was like 95, 151,110. haha. shiok. the second game was power! i first time got 4 strikes in a row. i was like awe struck. haha. slow and consistent wins the race ahh. haha. :) but then my healed finger seem to have blood come out. and pei hui. HAHAHA. BROKE HER 2 FINGERNAILS. awwww. poor thing. haha. i love bowling. but after a while, wrist there abit suan. craps. this is due to superbly lack of exercise. rahh. and all 3 of us have our own expressions when we turn around after rolling the ball. haha. best friend is the forever smiling one. pei hui is the super angry then can stamp foot kind. mine is the haiz. why like that. haha. and whenever we strike or spare, we celebrated the guys' way. haha. which is sooo NO LIFE!! HAHA. cause no excitement. your voice just goes low and stretch out your hand to high-five. hahahah. best friend laughed so loud that the guys nearby turned and stared. CRAPS. haha.

then we went ice-skating! cause i was a bit sick so i sat out for ice skating. so i was a rink visitor. haha. pay 3 bucks only. hmm. it was best friend first time!!! haha. quite funny la. pei hui is SCARYYY. the way she fall makes you think that shes so gonna either lay unconscious or fracture some arms and legs. hahha. cause after seeing the rink for a while, i start reading my book. then suddenly you hear a loud THUD. and LAUGHTER. hahahha. the first sound was made by pei hui falling, the second sound was best friend laughing. lol. SUPER LOUD. and i was like halfway across the rink. i still think ice skating is quite a romantic sport though. haha. ohh and i have a revelation of pei hui today!! wahhh. so good with kids ahh. haha. all the kids regardless of race or religion flock to her and start bullying her. hahahha. PEI HUI, SERIOUSLY CONSIDER A CAREER IN CHILD CARE. i think it totally suits you better then talking retardedly to test tubes. :) me and best friend concluded that pei hui had a caring side. WHAHAHAHHAA. funny.

anyway, after that we went to the arcade!! whahaha. finally!! my domain. i haven really been in there to play in ages!! like one month or so?? we played drums, basketball, spot the difference and daytona. haha. my usual. aiyohh. bball i only got 411. its like my arms got SUPER TIRED after the third round. its time to work out man. tomorrow tomorrow. haha.

met up with el family in the evening!!! hahha. makeshift bbq at bel's house. hahah. at first i thought is bbq at some proper pit. but this is COOLLL. haha. first time i bbq in a make shift thing. at the void deck with super DIM lighting. haha. make us cannot see whether our meat is cooked or not. hahaha. but it was wayyy cool! and we finished all the food! haha. it was one of the rare times that the whole EL family could come together! ohh wells. we meeting up soon again. haha. although. rahh. i couldnt eat the bbq food but aww. thanks bel darling for making lots and lots of fish fillet for me. haha. and cute small meatballs!! rahh. i was like super hot!!! hahah. cause i was wearing long sleeved and jeans BECAUSE OF THE COLD ICESKATING RINK. but when i arrived at the hot bbq thing, i was like CRAP. haha.

ohh. SCARYYY. cause me emmy and rach were crossing this small carpark road. then i saw this car coming behind us and emmy was crossing. but the car was moving quite fast so i just said. emmy got car, in a not super panicky tone. AND EMMY SCREAMED LIKE HELL. BLOODCURDLING LOUD SCREAM. that left me and rach wide-eyed and dumbfounded. everybody turned to look at us. hahahaha. WALOW! lol. and emmy said her life never flash before her eyes. TSK.lol she never look at the oncoming car also can scream until so loud!!! hahahaha. and sarah also so funny. cause i saw this cat then out of natural instinct i just meowed and hahaha. so cute!!! she screamed too. rahh. ehh sarah. cats and birds are soo harmless and cute!!!! hahahha.

anyway, on the way back on the mrt, me and emmy just laughed like crap. haha. when we smelled durians and i pointed it out, when i pushed open the mrt door to chiong for seats for us. when this weird guy so obviously trying to eavesdrop my conversation. haha. alls well and funny.

aahhh. ITS A HAPPY DAY. haha. fulfilling and enjoyable. do so many different things!! haha. :)

ooh i watched forbidden kingdom yesterday. haha. its not normally the type of genre i would associate myself with. BUT its not bad! haha. aah wells. the fighting part especially. i mean what would you expect, with jet li and jackie chan sparring together in the same movie. hahaha. i prefer jet li's style though. haha. more elegant and cool. jackie chan is very fast and accurate. both good though! ahahha. :) in the end, i never use my 2 dollar off voucher and today was the last day!! rahhh. very sad. see shang? happy? hahahha.

hope i can go gym tomorrow. im SUPER UNFIT! hahhaa. orr. check out some stuff that ive always wanted to do. :)

now, time to sleep. my hair is dry. yay. :)

2008-04-28T12:14:00.001+08:00

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise!

Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro.

If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you.

You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

HAHAHA. THIS IS FUNNY.

2008-04-28T12:08:00.001+08:00

You Are Country Music

You are friendly, down to earth, and fairly conservative.

You are true to your friends and your upbringing. Change is hard for you.

But beneath your old fashioned attitude, you are expressive and artistic in your own way.

Very few people can express pain and pleasure as eloquently as you can.

What Kind of Music Are You?

2008-04-28T12:03:00.000+08:00

You Would Do Most Things For Love

You are willing to go pretty far for love - but not far enough to compromise your core values.

Love is a priority for you, and you'll go further than most people to hold on to someone you love.

But killing for love? Or even taking a bullet? Probably out of the question.

No matter what, you love yourself the most!

Would You Do Anything For Love?

haha this is good! at least im not that irrational. but its quite true laa.

2008-04-28T11:48:00.000+08:00

You are a Romantic Realist

Okay, so you fall in the middle.

You know that love isn't like a greeting card...

Yet you can always find a greeting card to describe your feelings.

You are the best of both worlds

Girly yet independent, dreamy yet serious.

Almost any guy can find balance with you.

Are You a Romantic or Realistic Girl?

whahahaha. romantic realist. i like the sound of that.

2008-04-28T11:44:00.002+08:00

Your Personality at 35,000 Says...

Deep down, you prefer spending time alone to spending time with others. You enjoy thinking more than talking.

You are good with your place in the world. You are confident and comfortable with who you are.

Your gift is relating to other people. You don't hide from your own emotions, and you are good at drawing other people out.

You are inspired by challenges. If something is hard to accomplish, you want to do it.

It's very easy for you to feel happy. You can find peace with any situation.

The Personality Test at 35,000 Feet

cool.. this is true! haha. especially the challenge one. haha. its a bit of rebel personality. if people say cannot achieve, i more wanna prove them wrong! hahahah. and all the quizzes say im a people person ahh! haha. which i hope is true. hahaa. but its confirm that ill get into a job that requires relating with people. not looking at flowcharts and stats for the whole day. ill vomit blood.

2008-04-28T11:40:00.001+08:00

Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others

You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking.
You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together.

You should major in:

Counseling
Environmental studies
Law
Social work
Political science
Nursing

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatshouldyoumajorinquiz/">What Should You Major In?

haha. looks like my dream is consistent with who i am? everything that i should major in appears to be in arts and social sciences. haha. ohh wells.

i hate this.

2008-04-26T19:10:00.001+08:00

i hate this.
why must i always be so emo?
sometimes things just happen, so snap out of it.
but i cant seem to stop being upset.
why. how.
bogoshipta.

STIMULUS!

2008-04-18T13:50:00.002+08:00

wahh. finally feel a stimulus in my lethargic life. haha. woke up at 5.30 today to go waitressing. wah sehh! the rain was SUPER HEAVY. my socks and shoes were wet then lucky i jumped out of the way just in time if not, this bus would have splashed a huge torrent of water on me. i felt a sense of accomplishment today! cause i was really early. AS USUAL. cause i catch the early bus. since 13 comes once every 20 mins, i totally cannot afford to wait for the one after 6.15. haha. i prepared for breakfast customers on my own at first. haha. it feels good! and today was UBER BUSY. cause the hotel was almost full house. and ALMOST EVERYBODY came at 7. i really dont understand why people eat breakfast so early. doesnt the comfy bed appeal to you? rahh. i busied around like a bumble bee. haha. serving, clearing tables.for like 2 hours straight. whirlwind of work. :)

but now, my finger po pi. :( haiz. so i just bandage it up for the time being while i type this. haha. LUNCH WAS GOOD! :) rice rice and lots of food! yay. but i never eat toast for 2 consecutive waitressing days. MY STRAWBERRY JAM. why are you out of stock?? ill forever remain loyal to that. marmalade and apricot jam just doesnt appeal to me. rahhh.

ive been waking up at like 12 pm 3 days in a row excluding today. the first day was like wahh shiok. but then after that, the more i slept, the more easily tired i feel. SLEEP TOO MUCH LA! haha. therefore, ironically today i feel energized! :)

on wed, was EL family gathering!!! to celebrate emmy's birthday! haha. met up with rach and sarah first to go shopping. LUCKY I WAS WEARING MY FAV RED PUMA SHOES. ahha. walked around bugis street. so lostable. bought some stuff :) which after that i was broke. haha. i need to buy a belt next!!! later met up with bel, joyce and emmy too!!! haha. wahh. bel is taking street jazz lessons. COOLLL. i wanna learn that too!! ahah. i should totally do it instead of always saying i will. haha. so im gonna start finding courses already! okay. when im more free. haha. cause i wanna fine tune my piano skills first and jam on the keyboard! rahh. so many things to do! and its already april. haha. emmy looked so pretty in that yellow dress haha. ohh and in the middle of that, my mum sudddenly called me saying that smu sent me a letter. and it said:

CONGRATULATIONS. therefore ive been offered admission into smu school of social sciences. aah wells. now i have to wait for nus reply. :) then ill really think about it. but high chance ill still end up in nus laa. lots of forces motivating me to go there. ahha. SEE FIRST.

on monday, met up with best friend and peeweee!! hahha. we went minds cafe at bras basah. SUPER FUN!! haha we laughed like crap. played lots of getting to know each other better games and i realised that we do know each other well enough! ahaha. this guy that was working there was super nice but then also really funny. i felt so evil but then i was just super amused by the way he talks. then everytime must pretend to look at my hp and laugh. so it wont be so obvious. haha. and i spitted my milo dinosaur!! cause best friend said something funny. haha. UNGLAM!! BUT SO ME. ahha. then we played the reaction game. where practically is me and peewee play. haha. slamming our hands down on the bell. RAHHHHH. i loved the uno stacko!! haha. we chose that just for the fun of it. and it was the wobbliest structure i ever played! and i ALWAYS PLAy. haha. jenga rather. aah wells. it was damn fun! what with mind-boggling concentration and chants of: please off the air con! haha. and then we cam-whored in raffles hotel toilet. yes. RAFFLES HOTEL. tsk. pei hui ahh go toilet also must go so high class? ahha. i love these outings!

andd. cause of all the going out and working, i realise i havent studied for my SATs for 2 weeks!! rahh. craps. THEREFORE, after this post, im gonna go study!! for a few hours before i go out again! haha. yay. outings! but then, the combination of people a bit weird. just hope everything turns out fine. ahha. :)

busy me!

2008-04-13T13:23:00.002+08:00

wah seh. i realise ive been so busy that i haven got the chance to blog. haha. every time i blog its like one week summary of my week. anyways, been sort of out every day this week. haha. no stay at home and slack time! sooo very productive! haha. working as usual.

rahh. i broke a cup for the first time during waitressing! haha. cause of some hot guys. SHUCKS. haha. and i think my arms are becoming weak. ive got to exercise soon!! like totally!! yes gym here i come!

anyway, on wed, met up with best friend and peeweee. we chat and catched up and planned LOTS OF outings in the coming weeks!! haha yay! lets just hope everything will go according to plan!! yes yes. haha. what with pubbing, chalet, windsurfing, wakeboarding, iceskating. wahh sehh. the ultimate list of things to do before we go uni! hahhaa. andd best friend say smu start sending acceptance letters already. for the business school.rahh. i got no letter! does that mean im rejected? hahaha. im wait devotedly at my letter box. and after that, best friend went for touch rug training! and me and peeweee randomly decided to go k box! haha. we sang our hearts out and we nearly died. we zhao xia billions of times!!! haha. i think im crazy. now i love singing xin yue tuan songs. haha. totally sing until NO VOICE! haha. scream the lyrics out. andd i realise even though im a happy cat, i still always sing emo songs when i go k box! haha cannot help it ahh. its just me. :)

think i literally killed my voice on wed. haha. ate macs for lunch, then screamed and sang in k box while eating the 6 bucks a bowl peanuts with free refill( therefore must eat more if not money not hua) haha. then after that ate super hot curry at cinei foodcourt. rahh. super hot! haha. peeweee say i eat till my lips like swollen! hahaha.

andd on friday, it was life con! hahaha. went back to my dear beloved school! yay! totally miss sa a lot until now. haha. i think it has the greatest impact on me. i never did miss cedar this much. i totally wanna go back for guitar practices lor. being back in the school and in the cc brought back memories. haha. memories that i miss and memories that i know would be carved in my heart for a really long time. anyway, life con was quite good! haha. some of the songs were super nice! i think as long as theres good music and good band, ill be super satisfied! ahha. i wanna be in a band!!! sooo i super have to brush up my music skills! MS WHERES MY DRUM LESSONS? RAHH. haha. procrastinate soo long! anyway, friday was a day of catching up and meeting lots of people i haven seen in a long time. best friend, peewee, char, dale, hanger, alana, shawn, dave, glory. haha. blah blah blah. it rocks! and toooo bad we never go eat tau huay. if i wasnt hungry, i would have!! haha. tau huay and t3 cube is really a walk down memory lane. i think ill never be able to let go or forget my jc life. haha.

i think i finally see the difference. its not a matter of the intensity of feelings. this cant be compared. its the security i feel and the assurance that everything will be all right. the slight wavering should be due to the competitive me wallowing in self-pity that why i always couldnt be the one. it sucks when you cannot get something you hankered after for very long. now i understand. you cant always put the person before you. the perfect way would be to place both of you on the same level. then it would last long.

im getting used to the perfectness. :)

2008-04-06T12:49:00.003+08:00

aah wells. everything seems so smooth-sailing and perfect these days. yet realistic enough so i know its not just a dream. haha. :)

yesterday went to esther's cafe with shang. haha. i never go to grandlink square in my whole life before!! hahaha. okay. im slowly discovering paya lebar ahh. ive never been to singpost before either before this year. haha. im the central person ahh. happily living in my own district and world. the east and west are like ulu places. so lostable. haha. anyway, the band was GREAT! haha AZURE. I REALLY LIKE THEM! :) RAHHHH. the drummer was soo cute! haha. i was super inspired to play music and be in a band too!!! haha. okay. when i have time, ill totally start fixing tunes to my emo-nemo lyrics. haha. MS I WANT MY DRUM LESSONS NOWWWW. haha. the only teeny weeny down point. was. ehhh!! the drink was predominantly coffee! haha. and i wasnt allowed to take the heart shaped stirrer that is soooo cute!! rahhhhh. haha.

i wanna buy the cool sound maker thing that the keyboardist had. haha. it totally makes damn cool sounds like choral voices, arnold swazzenegar ( however you spell it) and chipmunk and many many more! haha. its damn cool. ill totally invest in that. haha. its my kind of toy! can you imagine the fun ill have experimenting with weird voices? hahaha. weeeee. okay. so my shopping list is thus : new slide hp, laptop, cool sound maker. yupp. for now, like that. and every one of them cost a lotttt. therefore, work harder mel! hahah.

ohh and yesterday was my busiest and most stressful day to date at kumon! hahha. i mark and mark like crazy. my brain worked like mad! and its all cause of last sat when the centre never open. haha. it totally describes the sentence: theres a price to pay for enjoyment. hahhaha. i knocked off late and for 5 hours straight, i didnt have the chance to check my hp when it was just underneath my table. haha. YES. it was that bad. but i think my patience level is like increasing! haha. cause even though it was crazy business yesterday, i didnt feel irritated!! haha. or maybe its just cause i knew i would enjoy myself later. yay. anticipation really keeps your mood high. :)

ooh on wed, met up with char, dale, pei hui and shang. haha. went to marina to play pool! rahhh. i totally think my pool skills have declined to ZERO. haha. i sucked. like crap. i can sit aside and rot. haha. i could totally hear the calling from behind me ( the bowling alleys) and from beside me ( the arcade) haha. RAHHHH!!!! anyway, it was fun just fooling around and being crazy. haha. im a super bad thrower! haha. sorry dale! rahh. but anyway, i think wake boarding is TOTALLY cool. when i have time i wanna do that too! HAHA. i keep saying ill do things when i have time. which is like the best time is probably now right. haha. but i have to work cause i wanna buy stuff before i go uni! MAYBE i wont be so busy in uni? *hopes* haha. but anyway, i have to study my SATs now! haha.

its confirmed! i registered for it already. 68 buckssss. haha. im taking it on 7 june! yess. 60 plus days away! im totally off to studying after this. COME OUT HARDWORKING MEL. haha.

i just saw this section in the newspaper. yes ME AND THE NEWSPAPER. WE ACTUALLY COME TOGETHER IN ONE SENTENCE. haha. the 50 yummiest cakes! wahh sehh. i totally tore that section out. theres this most chocolatey cake featured. described as SUPER SINFUL AND DELICIOUS. whahahaha. im totally going to use it as my cake guide and go to the places featured and taste the cakes there. haha. im a cakey person! especially chocolate! anyone wanna go with me??? :) haha.

ohh. and theres nice movies coming out again!! the thriller thats out : UNTRACEABLE. haha. im a totally psychological thriller person. i like! the way they play with your brain and the twists and turns. AS LONG AS its not too gory and its not THE GHOSTLY TYPE. haha. i think super smart people always have the excellent potential to become super criminals! cause they can plan out all their moves very detailedly and cool, seemingly perfect. haha. then ill super admire the police person who would decode and ULTIMATELY find the loophole. yeah man. haha. SHIOK! haha. anyway, 2 movies that i wanna watch and haven come out yet is DEFINITELY MAYBE and THE OTHER BOELYN GIRL. haha. the former one is a romantic comedy :) the latter is about some royalty thing where 2 sisters fight for the love of a king. love, lust and betrayal. :)

soo, everything is money money! hahahha. i gotta plan my schedule properly for all these stuff that i wanna do! soo no more slack days for me!! haha. even if i plan a day for me to stay at home, ill be studying SATs! yes! haha.

see? i become so motivated! are you happy? hahah.

ooh yeah!!!

2008-03-29T12:06:00.003+08:00

i just woke up like an hour ago.SHIOK!!! haha especially when ive had to wake up early everyday this week. it seems like a luxury. haha. no kumon-ing today! my arms are like aching today after the competitive ice hockey yesterday!!! haha.

ooh yeah!!! yesterday's smu interview was super fun! haha. it totally didnt feel like an interview at all! :) and i really find out that i love discussing about psychology thesis and stuff. especially with people who know their stuff and can either rebutt or come up with refreshing insights! hahahha. rahhhh. so, this is ultimately the first interview i ever had that i wasnt super scared or nervous in. haha. even in the waiting room, you can see different kinds of people. haha. i made new friends! lol. and i confirmed the fact that very few guys apply into school of social sciences. haha. even if they do, their first choice is like still business. AAH TYPICAL. haha. the only thing is that now im wavering AGAIN. haha. cause smu is not that bad after all. and if i decide not to go only cause of the fees, i think it will be a stupid decision. haha. so lets see then. when the application results come out i guess.

and yesterday played bball with shang. haha laughed like crap. TSK. i hate tall guys who hover over me and pressure me so i cannot shoot in peace. HAHA. GENTLEMANLY PLEASEEE. ohh wells. :)

ooh at night, met hanger and char and dale and pei hui. haha. we ate dinner at yoshi then went to visit best friend at her cafe!! haha. it was like my day started and ended at smu. i really love the cafe atmosphere! but ahhhh too bad its gonna close down next week. i hope that the new batch that take over, continue this concept. cause if i enter smu, i would totally want a cafe like that to chill at and destress. haha. best friend laughed at me as usual. then somemore ask her boss my face look very funny right? WHAT IS THIS?!?!?! spoil my image. hahaha. anyway, the nuts about chocolate milkshake was GOOD. haha super sweet! sooo my type. can rival with my fav chocolate cream chip at starbucks!!! then we made a lot of noise i think. having fun at the table soccer, ice hockey and pool table!! haha. pei hui the silent and cool pool ownager! hahaha. and char the must cut and action many times first time pooler! haha. i think i never play pool too long already. rahhh. my pool sucks like hell now. i can even miss ball! haha. ohh wells. left the place around 10 plus. SUPER ENJOYED MYSELF just hanging out like that. haha. :)

how i wish all of us would enter the same uni. but yeah right. haiz. haha.

scared..

2008-03-25T12:16:00.001+08:00

okay. im just super scared now. haha. cause i have an smu interview on friday morning. crap. i hope i pass it. -_-

i got a cold. :(

2008-03-22T18:58:00.002+08:00

I GOT A COLD. :( when i woke up, after a while when i rushed to work, and was nearly late, the air con at my workplace today just suddenly became super cold! rahhhh. and i wore a thin shirt instead of my black cotton one cause the weather in the morning was hot. rahhh cheat my feelings! i sneezed like crap, I FELT SO POOR THING. :( sneezing and frantically marking and working my brain and trying to cater to all the students' needs. i depleted 2 packets of tissue and some from the tissue box.

LUCKY there were no irritating kids today. if not, i cant promise i wont snap. amazingly, all the normally got a lot of questions one, were really quiet and guai today. THANK GOD. next time, ill wear long sleeves! haha. but i took panadol cold relief already. lucky it always works. im gonna have a hot bath later. haha. i love my daddy for making hot soup! it felt shiokkk. :)

not going for the easter vigil already.tomorrow then go for easter celebration! haha. think its better if i stay at home. and rest. rahhh. cause i wanna go out tomorrow! haha. i wanna watch step up 2!!!! :)

i could be.

2008-03-18T11:34:00.003+08:00

i could be playing bball with the gang and other guys now. i could be sweating it out at pp bball court. rahhhh. i could be meeting ppl i haven seen in ages. and why cant i? all cause of a stupid finger infection. which is not so painful now but then i got to be rational and let it become better rather than playing bball which i know would definitely aggrevate it.

haha its okay la. at least i got my longg sleep. been sleeping for like 10 hours plus the last 2 days. which is shiok. just stay at home and study lor. haha my SATs. and going for work. maybe im a bit sick of going out already. haha. at least for the time being, just be a good girl and stay at home to study. unless of course, someone offers me attractive offers to go out. then dont need to think, confirm say okay! hahahah.

i think i seriously need exercise. but im lazy to walk all the way to the gym. rahh. my future house totally has to have my own personal gym. so like ill walk a few metres then i can get my workout. the weather is so unpredictable these days. last night was uber hot. THANK GOD FOR AIR CON. haha. aahh. this week is going to be quite a busy one. i feel like isolating myself. haha. i have no idea why.

something is missing. but i cant say what.
im having doubts.
maybe this isnt all it looks to be?
or am i asking too much?

lets just hope for the best!

2008-03-16T22:10:00.002+08:00

i just applied for nus online just now. haha. faculty of arts and social sciences. i really wanna go there after the open house today. haha. i think it was good! i cleared a lot of my doubts! and worries. i totally know what i wanna do, i just hope i get in now. haha. finished the application in a super short amount of time. when i finished it, i totally felt weird. then this insecurity totally wash over me.. what if i cannot get in? then everything seems unsettled. only know in may! in the meantime, ill just bury myself in work and SAT preparation.rahh. PLEASE LET ME RECEIVE THE LETTER!! ill totally jump for joy and call MS!!!

haha. went nus open house with MS today.. went for the fass talk. i think it was good. haha. im super attracted to the tailored curriculum or whatever thing. YES. please accept me, nus!! rahh. haha. i totally think i wont have any social life lor once i get in. haha cause ill be damn busy studying. haha.

tomorrow applying for smu.. ahha i wanted to apply just now but then must write at most 300 words about myself. and my brain was a total blank la! haha. so maybe tomorrow. haha. im just quite attracted to the double major in psychology and human resources. haha. why must the fees be so expensive?!

disappointed

2008-03-13T14:15:00.003+08:00

okay. i haven blogged in like more than one week. just been super busy. working, going out and stuff. seems like everyone's blogging about results. haha but i dont want to. andd. please dont ask me? at least not yet. at least this whole thing finally put me in perspective. it shattered stuff i believed in. and now i know what i really want and what i can do without.

hmm. anyway, went to uni open houses. not really very appealing. but the psychology course in both ntu and smu seems nice. i hope nus offers what i really want though. haha. it would suck to find out that the thing ive always wanted is not that good after all. haha.

okay i dont really feel like bloggging. shucks. every single time i think about results, i become quite emo. and the pouring rain and cold wind is just a catalyst. i wanna go swinging in the rain. but cannot. im gonna leave for work super soon. rahhh.

ohh and i just finished watching which star are you from. haha SUPER NICE!!! aww. very sweet! haha. please let me find it at a sale! hahaah. im beginning to love munching koko krunch! haha. got this free decision spinner from golden compass. oh wells.

and. im happy i get to study again!! haaha. im totally taking SATs in june. rahh. just some personal confirmation and proving. not really of much use. haha. but it totally feels good sitting in macs, with my cedar jacket and studying like old times. haha.i missed that. i hope i can get into uni.then at that timee, ill totally throw myself into student life. and say byee to working life for minimally 4 years! it sounds great. haha.

been watching movies lately. now is the good movie time! haha. the only consolation from not studying. haha. now waiting for step up 2, definitely maybe etc. hahah. yay. maybe ill go watch the water horse. haha. it looks cute. GRAB THE STUDENT PRICE CHANCE! RAHH.

okay. i got to go work already. haiz. feel quite sian. please let me meet cute kids today. oh noo. please dont let it be like last thursday.

is this all just meant to be?
im kinda scared.

yay payday!

2008-03-05T21:01:00.002+08:00

yay. today is payday! haha. its not a lot. but its still money. :) andd i got my name tag today!! hahah. yay. now i really feel like i belong. rahhh. quite sleepy now.

after work, came back home to bathe then went out to meet tiara. haha long time no see!!! lol. passed her our dear story that we worked on together. wah it was something super long time ago. nowadays, i feel like im getting more in touch with my past. haha. lots of people from 2 years ago start popping up into my life. this rocks. :) but sometimes, its just a bit weird. haha. went to eat LJS. i really totally love the chocolate cream pie. haha. its sweet but just a teeny bit too ex. but never mind!!! haha. CHOCOLATE IS LOVE! :) im a sucker for sweet stuff. especially rich and delicious heavenly chocolate. haha i like strawberry too! :) recently then start liking. heh.

this is the amazing part of the day. when i left tiara and started walking to the mrt to go home, guess who i saw? hahah SARAH QING FU!!! hahahaha. wah sehh. in the end, i went with her to meet jul!!! haha. yay long time no see tooo!!! haha. we went iced mountain to eat dessert. and the fried dumplings were uber BIG. i mean huge. haha. it is the weirdest looking dumplings ive ever seen though. jul said it looked like soon kueh. haha. it probably did. and the iced lemon tea looked like lemon juice with ice. haha. the first thing i said was wheres the tea? rahh. it tasted different but still not bad. haha. not bad for a one buck drink. :) later while spending time before sarah's korean class, we went star bucks. haha and i saw vivian! wah seh. another long time no see friend. i think today is MEET UP WITH LONG TIME NO SEE FRIENDS DAY. coolllll. haha.

anyway, i loved yesterday! :) pleasant surprise.

ohh and monday, went out with EL family! rahh. except without rach this time. haha. it was quite impromptu. we confirmed the day before only. haha. yay. went to manhatten again. haha. where we last met to celebrate bel's birthday 2 months ago. wah. it seems so far back already. haha. anyway, i ordered chocolate mud pie! haha. yes. chocolate again. its $6.20!! wah craps. haha. but its huge and super chocolatey!!! so its worth it. :) yumms. i think we should organise more of these kind of outings. just catching up on each other's lives and gossip. hahaha. ohh and I BOUGHT COFFEE PRINCE DVD AT 15 BUCKS! WAHH DAMN HAPPY. :) its my 2nd fav korean drama after jin san shun. something that i can watch over and over again. haha. i think i must have watched jin san shun like 50 plus times? not exaggerating. it was like permanently in my dvd player. ( which ONLY plays vcd's. not dvd's. and i totally have no idea why. ) haha. the guy in jin san shun, hyun bin. is UBER CUTE!! DAMN CUTE. HAHA. i love him to bits!!! hahaha. i like his character in the show. :)

OKAY. this is basically on everyone's blog so ill do it too! haha. go with the flow once in a while. results are coming out on friday. haiz. finally its CONFIRMED. but then now the fear starts to enter. but i guess the good thing is that i never dreamed about my results before, which lots of people seem to be doing. so maybeee my sub concious mind isnt that traumatised? i dont know laa. but lucky im working these few days preceding the results so i wont have time to think too much. haha. i know what i want. so even if i cant get it this time around, ill work hard till i get it. nothing can stop me. :)

ohh yeah. and all the open houses are coming up! haha. im going for all of them. even though ive already set my sights on nus, still.. doesnt hurt to just look around. :)

rest and then work again!

2008-02-27T21:27:00.003+08:00

wahh. yesterday i slept for like 4 and a half hours. haha. lack of sleep SERIOUSLY results in extreme impatience. haha.woke up early today to go waitressing. yay. breakfast time was SUPER busy. i like it when its busy. no time to even yawn. haha. I LOVE THE WORKING ENVIRONMENT! lalalalala. and i think my feet is getting used to the shoes. haha no more blisters! :)

went shopping with my mum just now. bought 2 bags! haha. its super irritating to shop today. cause everyone keep banging. wahh damn irritated. so many ppl stepped on my shoes. MY RED SHOES. and pushed here and there. i seriously felt like shoving them back la! but never mind. im REFINED. haha. aaargh. but all the irritation disappeared when this salesgirl that i bought something from smiled and said thank you. haha. i think im a sucker for smiles. :) it seriously brightens up my day and helps to relieve tension!

my schedule is kinda packed for this week and next week. haha. what with working and meeting up with friends. and when the hell is results going to come out? rahhh. it keeps getting postponed. hmm. i should have gone for the ntu talks. but i was working though. hmm. im gonna go for the nus open house. haha. where my ultimate dream and goal lies. haha.

work work work!

2008-02-22T16:37:00.002+08:00

haha. just got back not long ago from my waitressing job. wooo. been like working and working for the past few days laa. i need resttt. hahaha. but its good knowing my bank account will increase in savings! whahaha. slowly, bit by bit. rahhh. i like waitressing. :) its seriously not as tiring as i thought it would be. and the people are sooo nice!!! hahhaaha. yay. plus, i learn new stuff everyday, like how to make drinks. and nice looking ice cream. haha.. goshh. today i learned how to make banana rama. and. OH MAN. the hershey chocolate sauce looked super tantalizing!! rahhh. hahhaa. its uber nice when eaten together with vanilla ice cream and chopped nuts!!! :) :)

and i saw this cute asian guy i think. wahhh his eyelashes uber long. and his side view is sooo meltable!!! haha. when he say thank you, hahha. my heart skipped a beat! lol. and then there's these ang moh kids. wahhh super super cute!!! heh. :)

although my shift is like from 7-3. THEREFORE, i have to wake up super early. haha. maybe 5.40 like that. even earlier than when i woke up for school la! hahah. but guess what bus i take to work? 13!! i think i super have an affinity for that bus. hahahha. lots of memories and a big part of my life. haha. actually i think the number 13 appear lots of times in my life. i live on 13 floor too. haha. sooo, in my dictionary, i dont care. 13 is NOT an unlucky number. haha. i think my transport is closely linked to my house. hahaha. last time in cedar, i took 155 and i live in block 155. haha. ehh how cool is that? rahhh. anyway, when i take 13 now, i do pass by sa bus stop. wahh. when i see sa ppl wearing the UNIFORM and coming up the buss. :( i miss those days of studying!!!!!!! rahhhh.

ohh. there is only ONE thing i do not like about my job. MY SHOES! haha. i super hate black court shoes. i ALWAYS get blisters. and im totally not exaggerating. last time when i had to wear court shoes for guitar concert also like that! rahhh. haha. on my first day of work, my blisters were super big and painful and i still continued walking. haha. like literally limped but try not to make it obvious. haha. then the next day, it bled through my plaster. rahhh. haha. so today i stuffed cotton wool into my shoes. so the condition not that bad. hahah. :)

ooh. on the way home, i saw this worm that looked super woolly crawling on the floor. then when i walked past, it stopped moving. i think it was scared so it pretended to be a piece of long and gray cotton wool. hahha! then when i walked past it, it looked up, circled the whole surroundings then continued crawling again. haha damn cute laa!!! normally i would think its gross. haha.

on wed, went to celebrate best friend's birthday!!! hahaha. happy birthday best friend! we went k boxing! me, pei hui and ms. forever k boxing. i think its like our fav activity together. cause we go crazy. lol. we were banned from dianning emo songs at first. haha. then so weird la! LOTS of songs were like out of bounds for me. haha. but lucky FINALLY i was allowed back into my element. hahaha :) we totally went super high the last part of the session. we sang those siao songs. and screamed and danced like crazy! hahahha. its like cheena clubbing. lol. after that, went far east with ms and pei hui to go shopping! i bought a top! :)

ooh busy busy. haha probably watching movie later. yay. :)

success operation surprise!

2008-02-16T19:05:00.002+08:00

haha. yay yesterday was the long-awaited gathering with the gang of us!!! hahha. although racoon and ms never come, at least the 5 of us met up. glory, rach, peeweee, best friend and me!! rahhh. haha. miss you guys so much! haha. OPERATION SURPRISE was a total success! hahahha. i met peeweee to buy cake for best friend surprise celebration thingy. haha. aahhh. the staff at wheelock fish and co. is ultimately cool!!! haha. its the best interaction and effort that ive seen put in by waitresses lor. hahhaha. but it was a total shock! hahaha. ehh best friend in like 5 years time, when you open your cafe, i think you should hire xiao hui. hahahhahaa.

its really funny! hahaha the cake appeared when we said we gonna order dessert. xiao hui told best friend to go to the counter to get the ice-cream she ordered. and ta-dah! hahah. the cake appeared and out came 2 chairs. one super high. and best friend was made to stand up on the chair and hold her cake and a sparkler while the whole staff burst into happy birthday chorus and some gang cheer or something. haha goshh. it was totally much more than what i had in mind. hahahhaha. wahhh lucky im not the one having to stand up there. hahahha. ill be damn paiseh-ed and turn into a lobster. hahahaha. best thing is, we saw miss ye there too! hahahah. ehh best friend, although its quite traumatising, at least its SUPER memorable right! haha. i bet you wont forget it!! haha yay! :) lets go indo-chine for our next outing! or some place with a live band thingy. hahah. we can visit ms at her work place! hahahha.

THANKS PEEWEEEE FOR THE TREAT. LOVE YAAAAAAAAA. hahaha.

anyway, after the dinner, me and peewee didnt feel like going home. so we went j8 arcade played till like 11 plus. haha. then emmy and chimpin joined in. rahhh. i love arcade!!! haha. but emmy won me in daytona!! WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TO??? haha. i swear its the heels. haha. ehh cannot press properly ahh. haha yes yes. must be. lol. :) im getting so used to going home around that time. goshh. what happened to the reach home by 10 and its so late already mentality. hahhah. must be cause no more school. rahh. i wanna go school! :( and the stupid false alarm that a's were gonna come out yesterday. haha. make me miss my waitressing training.

anyway, i think hatred is slowly being washed away and replaced by something else. i think.

i really believe that every day is valentine's day when youre with the one you love.

happy cny? or just routine-like.

2008-02-10T13:25:00.000+08:00

aah wells. its chinese new year! i used to super look forward to this day. cause i always secretly save my harvest to last me for the whole year! ahhaha. okay la. i still look forward to the thrill of receiving those red packets. but now, cause im earning my own money, not so desperate already. haha. cny is quite boring laa. i wanna have a fun cny!! rahhhh.

aah wells. watched 27 dresses already. and its nice!!! haha. i can soo relate to the girl. sometimes i wonder how i could hold on. its like the more i crumbled, the stronger defense i put up. in a way, its good. but putting down those defences might take long and im sure the process would be painful. haha.

yupp. anyway, the next 2 shows i wanna watch is jumper and ps i love you!!! haha. SWEENEY TODD IS TOTALLY OUT. i cannot stand gore and blood splattering. haha. (quote from peewee's blog. lol) i am not gonna spend money to make myself uncomfortable. BUT. if people treat, then i MIGHT reconsider. haha. but possibility not high!

these few days kinda just slack at home and lounge in front of my computer and watch full house. haha. its totally my second fav korean drama after jin san shun. hahaha. damn funny. i always burst out laughing. and although i dont have any super preference for rain. i totally love the character that he acted in the show. cause its super cute!!!!!! hahahah. :) kou shi xin fei.

ohh and on tuesday, went to play badminton with emmy. haha yes finally!! a ball game in soo long. although never feel super tiring, but it was fun! haha. DJOKOVICH and TSONGA ahh emmy!!! hahaha. the fist pumping and talking to yourself!!! hahahaha. aah wells. oh yeah the men's finals tennis match was like damnnn cool!!! haha. i was super glued to my seat laa. it lasted for like 2 hours plus. shiok. and its really super high quality tennis!!! hahha yayy!! I LOVEEE TENNIS!! haha. if i get into NUS, my cca would either be bball or tennis! haha. must be sports la. although im kinda interested in dancing, i need work-outs often. haha.

yesterday during work, i came into contact with super cute kids! haha.cuter than usual. the excuses they can come out with ahh. are very funny! if older kids said it, like maybe my age, i would just roll my eyes and say damn lame. but haha. everything is different when the words come out from a 6 year old kid's mouth. haha. let me tell you what he said. straight away when he walk into the centre:

teacher! my sister tore up my homework AGAIN! ( then with lots of roll-eyes and mumbling from the other teachers. haha. cause apparently, he always does that i think.)
she tore up my maths homework cause she jealous that i do finish and she never do finish! so she tear up my homework!
then the teachers ask what about his chinese homework. (this is my fav part! :))
ohh! that day i go to the park, then i brought my chinese homework. then i saw this cat. very fierce! like want to attack me with her claws! then she claw my homework. you want to see the marks? then my daddy thought is scrap paper so he take up and throw into dustbin. but i tell you ahh!! luckily, when my daddy saw the cat and me, he save me and not save the paper!
HAHAHAHAH!! WHAT THE HELL RIGHT? HAHAA. DAMN FUNNY!!!

aiyah. i totally love kids la.. haha. i mean like from toddlers onwards. cause i dont think i can stand a baby's crying that much. haha. therefore, i enjoy my job a lot!! :)

busily fitting my schedule. -_-

2008-01-28T19:23:00.000+08:00

i haven blogged in almost 10 days! haha. thats cause my com's internet connection kinda was down for a while when i fixed my new cordless phone. but now its done! haha. goshh. i totally missed having a cordless phone. it super helps multi-tasking! haha. and i wont have to strain my ears so much just cause the phone is next to the tv. haha. anddd. theres more privacy! yay!

these few days been quite busy. as in finding work, working, fitting my schedules and going out. :) there are a few tuition assignments pending. and im quite nervous about it. haha. but at least im not wasting my time slacking at home and rotting! haha. i love the feeling of earning my own money. haha. i wanna see my bank account expand cause of my own efforts. yay. super satisfying. cant wait for paycheck day! :)

ohh. and now finally, nice movies are coming up. haha. i was like damn sian during december cause there were no nice movies and dec was supposed to be holiday month. haha. anyway, i super wanna catch 27 dresses!! yay. finally my kind of genre! haha romantic comedy. :) andd. next month movie, jumper. its action-packed with a dash of romance. intriguing. :)

aah wells. chinese new year coming up and my most hated day coming up too! but i actually really hope i can finally wash away my hatred for that particular day. maybe this year something would be different. i really hope so though. maybe ill finally get closure for some things.

oh wells. sad stuff aside. last monday, me, ms, alwyn and zhicong went to visit best friend at her cafe!! haha. the environment is veryyy nice and conducive! haha. if i was an SMU student, that would be my most favourite haunt! haha. with the super nice comfy sofas that you sink into once you sit down, the pool table, the ice hockey table. haha. its a super good place to sit down with your laptop and do your research paper. BUTTT. ive set my sights on NUS! haha. i really really hope i can get in the psychology course there. if not, i would seriously be lost. haiz. even though i think SMU has like much more air-conditioning than NUS, haha. even though NUS is like a big but old campus, i have no idea why to me, its always been NUS or nothing. i guess its regular exposure to it bah. since secondary school going there for tennis competitions. haha. anyway, after visiting best friend, haha. and sharing oreontal milkshake, we went to ms house! haha. AS USUAL, played mahjong, and stuff. and i finally learned how to play bridge!! haha. okay im just a beginner so still very bad with all the tactics and everything. but at least not so sua ku anymore!

then on tuesday, went out with ms and dave in the morning. haha. the last time i saw dave with hair! haha. aww. super nice dave treated us to stuff. even though the restaurant seemed like the salt was for free. haha. everything was superrr salty!! rahhhh. then we went to this camera shop and semi-gallery cause dave wanted to look at cameras. haha. then had this whole camera talk. cameras are totally something not in my league. haha. almost didnt understand everything. i dont think im a very art or photo person. haha. i think im a more literary and words person rather than pictures. although. a picture says a thousand words. haha. i cant seem to decipher the thousand words behind stuff. ohh dave bought a camera and we cam-whored a while. haha. doing stupid poses and stuff.

ooh. i started my first day at kumon last thursday!! :) haha i like it. dunno how to explain. i think i just like the way the small kids smile at me and say thank you teacher and stuff. even though im just stuck to my seat marking and explaining most of the time, i just totally have that satisfaction. haha. but after 6 hours of sitting there, when work ended, my back totally ached and my eyes were tired from looking at figures. haha. it super felt like the time when i was mugging for a and o levels. haha.

rahhh. on friday... HANGER GO ARMY!! AND DAVE. :( haha. i have no reason why. but i really dont like it when my guy friends go into army. cause it seems like army is some kind of invisible barrier thats totally gonna diminish our closeness. haiz. but its inevitable. rahhh.

anyway, my new washing machine just arrived!! yes!! haha. finally, dont have a huge heap of unwashed clothes. dunno why. but a lot of stuff has been quite faulty around the house lately. maybe cause its been tooooo long. haha. my new washing machine is mini but cute!

it will be hard to break through the wall ive built around me.

still aching muscles. :(

2008-01-19T14:37:00.000+08:00

okay. i really dont wanna sound like im complaining. but. MY MUSCLES ARE STILL ACHING!!! rahhh. why? haha. do not say im unfit. if not, you will dieeeee.

later im going to hopefully my potential work place for some sort of informal interview or something. goshh. i hope its really short cause im rushing off to somewhere after that. hmm. i really want to get that job!!! haha. teaching assistant for small kids. sounds cute right. haha.

anddd. how come now suddenly all the jobs come pouring in? hahhaa. i got lots of offers now. but a bit hard to arrange my schedule. and. im starting to teach tuition! goshh. i hope i do fine. haha. i rejected sales and admin. purely cause i cant fit it into my schedule. rahh. i wanna work work work! too bad i cant find time to fit. if not, so many different experiences is cool laa!! haha.

anyway, im getting super distracted these days. my brain is like in a clutter. haha. so i think finding a job is a really good way to get my mind off things. but im kinda nervous about the tuition thing!!! haha. what if i lose my patience? gosh. then ill get shoo-ed out of the house by a broom! hahaha. but never mind. there's a first for everything! yes yes. :)

PEEWEEE at least im no longer a bummer at home!!! hahaa. rahh. my timetable next week quite packed. with lots of non-confirmed stuff. but im so sad that i got to forego my class outing just cause i got to give tuition!!! rahhh. very sad laa. but never mind! haiz. what never mind.

i need strength and patience now.
and please dont let my brain run wild.

stubborn blisters!!!

2008-01-17T20:48:00.000+08:00

RAHHH. just got home not too long ago. wahh. damn tired. and! i just realised the blister that burst on my foot GREW AGAIN. all cause of the bball playing today. aah craps! now its hard. haha im scared. should i just leave it or burst it? and im going jogging tomorrow! i hope it doesnt grow even bigger or something.

anyway, today woke up early to go pp cc to play bball with ms, best friend, hanger, alwyn, zc. haha. 9.30! very good. early morning feel so nua. haha. plus never eat breakfast. but it was seriously a good workout! and fun! hahaha. i soo miss playing bball like that. rahh. i miss school again! it felt so weird taking 13 today to pp and not having to go into school. anyway, although i think my stamina sucks like crap, i still love bball! haha. we laughed, talked crap and nearly dehydrated under the hot hot sun. WHICH totally went down after we decided to stop play. haha. and somebody was cuteeeer than usual. haha.

after that, we were super ravenous. haha. went to broadway to eat.. aahhh. the memories. lol. ate mixed rice. wells. i ordered kinda a lot. and the guy said in chinese, 2 people eat izzit? i was like haha umm no. walow. so paisehh. this ALWAYS happens to me. haha. then wanted to eat tau huey actually but! too full and tired. haha. in the end, decided to go ms house instead of hanger cause SOMEONE NOT FREE. tsk. haha. i really wanted to go see see! aah wells. something damnn funny happened on the bus. haha. we were sitting near the window seat then ms randomly waved and smiled to this small little boy at the bus stop. hahhahah!! then the boy boarded the bus. me and best friend were like trying to hold back our laughter. the small boy stayed close to ms and keep staring at her lorrr. hahhahaha!! i think the boy thought ms liked him. hahah it was superr funny.

anyway, we went ms house and i played real mahjong for the first time!! haha. i always only played mahjong on my mum's hp. not bad laa. got a bit of beginner's luck. then we played table soccer, dai di, bluff. blah blah blah. haha. super enjoyed myself just hanging out like that. :) aah wells. guess this is probably the last time seeing the guys before they enter army. haha.

on monday, went k boxing with ms! hahaha. yay. sang like crazy. and due to me wearing heels, which was a super stupid decision!!!! thats why i have blisters now. rahhhh. WHY SOME PEOPLE CAN WEAR HEELS LIKE FLATS? hahha. i think forget it la. i can revert back to my non-girly person. haha.

and.. as for finding jobs, im STILL FINDING. haha. at least im making effort right? hahaha. lets hope i get a job soon. and its something i like. :) i really really hope i get the tuition centre one. please? rahhhh. haha.

ooh wells.

2008-01-13T13:35:00.001+08:00

im in quite a pleasant mood today. and i totally slept well last night. haha. so ill blog! :)

the past days and week have been hectic.. haha. but in a fun and pleasant way. cause its without work!!! hahaha. BUT although slacking around is okay. i would much prefer to do part time and get paid. hahaha. SAVE MONEY! for dunno what i want. haha. aah wells. the past days went out like crazy. haha where to start??

ookay. lets start with the outing with first 3 months gang!! haha. rich, fen, linus, dave and darren. aah wells. met rich and dave first. haha. we went to play pool!! AAAHH FINALLY. hhaa. the first game i kinda sucked.BUT. after that, hmm. whahahaha. not bad laa. haha. the funny thing was this person kept announcing over the pa system "no taking pictures at the pool table please" but. dave just didnt care laa. haha. anyway, his camera is COOLLL. haha. but since its not digital, goshh. i do hope the washed out photos are not that bad. haha. anyway, then we met fen and just walked around in marina square. i really like the place with the many many steps in front of marina square. haha. its really romantic when you sit there at night and just chat! aah wells. then catched up with linus and darren. haha. everyone seems to be working. hmm.

oh yes. then on last friday, best friend and peewee came over to watch kim san soon!!! whahahaha. we all so have the potential to become her man. haha. the guy is cuteeeee. then AT VERY LAST MINUTE NOTICE, hahahha. we went to this police scholarship talk to pei MS. its umm interesting? haha. okay la. at least i cleared some doubts. although i think criminal psychology is really fun, haha. i think ill not become a police. cause im not really interested in running after criminals. im only interested in solving homicides that kind of thing. like CSI! haha. and analyzing how criminals think. sooo maybe ill delve into forensic psychology. AS LONG AS it doesnt involve me personally doing autopsy on corpses. ILL JUST DIEE. haha.

then on monday, i went job hunting with MS!! haha. it was damnn fun. haha. lots of things happened! and i bought lots of stuff at very GOOD prices! hahaha. but the stuff on my shopping list all crossed out already! therefore, im not gonna spend money now. SAVE SAVE! haha. seriously, lots of things happened. too many to account for. but i soo miss hanging out like that! haha. laughing like crazy. first time sitting in macs opening newspaper and started calling up potential bosses. hahahah. its damn funny. ppl were staring laa!! then we went sushi tei to interview. phew. its not as scary as what we thought it would be. haha. aah wells. waitressing is something fresh and interesting. haha. im staying away from admin at least till april. then after that, ill find a 9 to 5 job with good pay and work till july. haha. after all, money isnt the first priority!! although its VERY IMPT. yes yes. haha. but i just want the experience in many different jobs! and can analyze customer psychology in the meantime. :) anyway, i totally love the atmosphere in starbucks! haha and the super sleepable chair!! MS and i made a pact. haha. next time in uni, when we doing our research paper or something, we'll bring our laptops there and do there!!! haha. IM TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH THE CHOCOLATE CHIP CREAM SOMETHING DRINK. its heavenly!!! hahaha.

oh yeah. and we totally got lost together. walking like blur birds around suntec and marina square. haha. oh yeah. my new fav place is soo gonna be suntec city shopping mall! haha. BYE BYE FAR EAST. it has lots of shops, arcade, k box. woohoo. and plus, esplanade with its romantic waters is just nearby too!! :) haha. and later, after FINALLY finding the place we got lost finding. eating a few pieces of tapioca chips. hahahha. we had to run out of the place like guilty criminals!! hahaha. all cause of some stupid cover price. TSK. hahahha. its damn funny.

then on tuesday, wahh FINALLY went gymming. haha with emmy!! :) cause its our first time, we super malu-ed ourselves!! haha. by trying to force into the gym by the wrong door!! then we realise if we did open that door, it would trigger some sort of alarm! haha aiyohh. and apparently, emmy said the gymming ppl were staring at us but i didnt dare to look!!! haha. we stayed there for 2 hours. TIRED LIKE CRAZY. haha. i think i overworked my thighs or something. but it was good exercise! :) andd i saw lots of sa ppl!! and this UBER CUTE guy. goshh. haha. he was just oozing hotness!!! ehh ehh. haha. when he was lifting weights, then i was staring then he saw. i nearly turned into a tomato! haha. i saw my most fav machine of the gym! i am so gonna be concentrating on that the next time i visit the gym. the training abs machine!!! wah seh. yayyyy. ABS HERE I COME!!

then went back to emmy house to eat lunch. watched this show "meet joe black" for the last hour. it was really nice!!! i cried. rahhh. it was almost the only show that i think brad pitt SERIOUSLY looks cute and hot at the same time. aahh. i think guys with innocent and child-like expressions but also have hot bodies haha. totally irresistible! andd. emmy introduced me to s11 coffee shop! im super satisfied with the mixed rice!! haha just 4 bucks and the first time, merely eating one dish made me super full. haha worth it! i remember i only went that place once before!! hahaha. with hanger. oh wells. and i went to borrow 12 library books! yay.

wednesday was a "stay-at-home-and-rest-cause-muscles-are-aching day" haha.

on thursday, went with my cousin to temasek poly open house. ALL THE WAY to tampines. rahhhh. haha. STUPID ADULT FARE!!! haha. ill never get over that. lol. hmm. it was not bad. but i still seriously think im suited for jc life. haha. i think jc feels more homely. haiz. i miss jc life!! :( uni wont be the same. cause i wont be able to explore every single part of uni. but im really looking forward to studying again!! haha :) i just hope ill be able to get into nus. rahhh.

and. hopefully if im not starting job training tomorrow, ill go k box!!!! hahah.

mixed feelings.

being an adult sucks..

2008-01-03T14:44:00.000+08:00

okay! i guess im sort of considered an adult. haha. that came as a rude shock when i took my first bus ride of 2008 yesterday. haha. im so used to the sound "ti ti" for god knows how many years. then yesterday when i pressed my ez-link card, its just "ti". haha. i had to triple-check whether it was my card. then aahhh!!! realisation dawned. NO MORE STUDENT :( it SUCKS. i hate the sound. not to mention bus fares are like SUPER EXPENSIVE. i can say goodbye to the thought of just taking a bus for fun to nowhere. because it would cost me a bomb. aah crap la. so, i think ill just walk to and fro from junction 8. haha. save one dollar thirty cents okay. haha. sounds cheapo. BUT. in the long run, uh hah. haha. and dont get me started on mrt fares too.

anyway, on new years eve, went to bbq. haha. talked, bbq sotong. with its SCARYY tentacles. haha. its just gross la. ooh. played with sparklers!! haha. brian taught me to throw up into the tree. and they looked pretty! although its only short-lived :) haha. i had fun just screaming when my sparklers couldnt stay up the tree. haha. cause imagine if they dropped on my head. then best. my short hair. would become..?? okay. i dont even want to think about it. haha. and craps. i think my appetite is like getting better and better. i ate 3 plates of fried rice that day then was just nice. one hour later, hungry again. haha. anyway, tsk. i ALWAYS get bullied. haha someone help?? oh wells. stayed there till like 1 plus? tired like crap. and the night wind was sooo cold! :(

ooh yeah. my cousin came my house to sleep over! haha yay! on new year's, it really felt like a brand new start and that things would look up this year i hope. haha. went to ding tai fung to eat. and eat until my stomach was superrr bloated. haha. what prawn pancakes, fried rice, chicken soup, xiao long bao. wahhh. haha. then we went arcade. ooh yeah!!!! haha. i broke my record again!! bball i mean. SOO HAPPY LAA!!! ahhaaha. now my highest score is 455. UH HUH. hahahaha. and im in the over 400 range. haha yay! okay this just shows my real bball skills are not good. haha. cause normally bball players suck at arcade bball. AAH WELL. dont care. haha. hmm. i saw you on the magazine. dont know what to feel.

yesterday went to celebrate my darling bel's birthday!!! haha. and its officially our wedding anniversary day too!! whahahaha. :) met up with rach darling, joyce, emmy, mel chan and belll!!! hahaha. sarah got korean lessons. tsk. haha. ooh. rach darling is so darling! haahaha. me and bel got a huge sunflower each. yay! i love receiving flowers! :) anyway, went manhatten fish market to eat. haha FIRST TIME! and goshh the veggie of the day is ULTRA GREEN! hahaha. i was super fascinated by the flaming pan thingy. the fire was awesome! haha. :) anyways, we surprised bel with her cake in the end. yay! :) haha emmy and i bluffed her that her cake was some small miserable chocolate truffle. haha. but it was fun laa. hope we gather like that sometime again soon. and aaahhh. jealous of rach!! ahahahaha. i wanna sit NEL. :( haha.

went back with emmy. and we walked home from j8. hahaha. apparently, the minimum top up for adult card is 10 bucks. haha. our eyes nearly popped out.what happened to the friendly 5 bucks top up? haha. and.. oh. adults no concession. haha. the counter lady told us. i nearly laughed out loud. no wonder ppl complain about transportation fees. NOW, i really understand. haha. i guess to save money, i dont care how lazy my legs are. haha. SAVE MONEY!!!!! raahhh.

supposed to go gym in the morning today. but it was raining. and a bit inconvenient. soo postponed to next tuesday!! haha rahh im getting fat!! cause i keep eating. PLEASE LET ME EXERCISE!!!! and. think im learning dance soon again. haha. :)

later, gonna meet dave, rich and fen!! haha. yay! catch up time! :)

just give me a sign. thats enough.
you wont give me even that?

letting go of 2007...

2007-12-31T15:18:00.000+08:00

oh wells. the last day of 2007. i dont know why but this year, that phrase seems to evoke much more emotion than it did the previous few years. i think thats cause to me, this year has been the most intense emotional roller coaster ride of my life. lots of things happened that tested my patience, my tolerance. and many times, i was on the verge of breaking down. :) but now, looking back on all those incidents, i guess they served to strengthen me. i matured and grew up, no matter how much i didnt want to..

truthfully, even though im gonna miss 2007 because it depicted the last year of jc life, of uniform life, but in a way, im relieved 2007 is over. its true that close friendships are forged, wonderful memories created.. and thats why im not regretting that i ever went through 2007. its just that the end of this year gives me a chance to end the hurts, the pain, the confusion that ive went through. it serves as a transitional phase so that i can look forward to 2008 as a fresh start for me. i really believe that 2008 will be a greater year. ill keep in touch with all my friends. :) and ive learned to let go of certain things that i know would only be stupid to hold on. why hold onto something that will never happen, or will never be yours? 2007, with all its distractions and other things that went on in my life, basically it revolved around only one thing. haha. i feel somewhat relieved that i can finally untangle my life to a certain extent such that the old wounds wont open up again.

2007 involved struggling with what i believed in. and even though there were really hard moments, my priorities haven changed. and im glad i stuck through.

now, i really wanna thank these people that stuck by my side in sa throughout. :)

Hanger - haha BOOOO.. you'll always be my favourite laa. haha. *coughs* you know. anyways, these 2 years of jc life would never be the same without you. it would probably be with less thrills, less fun, less laughter, less craziness, less tears, less rolling eyes.. blah blah. yeah you get what i mean. haha. when you go army, ill miss you desperately. rara junior too!!! haha. and dont say i always do. if not, ill slap you. haha. thanks for always sticking by, listening me rant, knowing when im upset. being considerate. and just being the person you are. haha :) andd. i think now my social circle is wider than yours!!! haha. dont bother to rebutt ahh! haha. ill really miss hanging out in school with you, hiding in guitar room. doing stupid things. and haha. being the manager of your animal kingdom!!! haha. okay. that one is i label myself. hahaha. anyways, never ever lose contact k? and we better organise some hanger outings!! :) I LOVE YOU!! BEST FRIENDS AND HANGERS FOREVER!!! :)

Best friend yinx- BEST FRIEND!!!! hahaha. youre the most innocent and harmless person i know!! haha. aww. everytime make me feel like must protect you. haha. thanks for all the sunshine and laughter you bring into my life. i think the term opposites attract totally means our situation. haha ill never get tired of saying i cant believe im the youngest girl in class and youre the oldest!!! hahaha. youre the only person who can laugh at me totally continuously, no matter im angry, sad, scared, happy, indignant. whatever. haha. and thanks for being sensitive too!!! haha. even though we mostly talk crap, BUT theres room in our best friendship for serious stuff too!!! hahha. andd. its only with you!! that my sense of humour is GONEEE. hahah. i love you best friend. seriously. thanks for always being there for me. for going with me to see sheep. and for always trying to cheer me up when its ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE. haha. ill never forget you! and you better not forget me ahhh!!! :) ill always keep your photo frame in somewhere i can see it. haha. ill forever be thankful of you!! :) best friends forever!

MS- HEYYY ms!! hahaha. whats going on in our private world? haha. we're soo similar in many ways!! haha. i think thats why our world haven collapse yet. haha. dont keep straying away from our world i tell you! haha. im so glad i got to become close friends with you this year. ahha. i remember we weren't close last year. i thought you were too hyper. you thought i was too serious remember? haha. BASKETBALL brought us together ahhh. :) i miss laughing with you and talking our code language. haha youre a great friend!! listen to me complain, sharing my views. ehh ehh. even sharing ahxes. hahahha. your BOON KENG. my ahx 1,2,3. haha. and a part of our k box gang!!! hahaha. i totally cant imagine life in sa without going crazy with you. stalking people. BEING THE ONLY SANE PEOPLE IN THE CRAZY WORLD OUTSIDE. hahahaha. i love you laa ms. and i dont care how busy you are ahh! must find time to hang out together if not, ill cross our equator and wage wars with you!! hahahaha. MS IN OUR EXCLUSIVE WORLD FOREVER!!

peeweeee- OOOIIII!! 10 TIMES SOFTER!!! ahaha. i totally miss saying that and trying to jinx you every opportunity i have. aah wells. but then if dont have you this loudhailer. haha. i think the silence would be deafening. ALTHOUGH sometimes, its relaxing. haha kidding. i loveee your singing voice. haha. close eyes really sound like my dream guy's voice. hahha. CLOSE EYES ahh. anyways, thanks for sharing stuff with me and listening to mine as well. you've been a great friend. :) we're the shrooms gang! hahha. dont lose contact ahh!! lets go k boxing! and bball soon!!!!!! :) andddd. i love you!! in a TOTALLY STRAIGHT WAY. hahhaahha.

char the racoon- RACOOON!!! HAHA. my river is forever open to you! :) thanks for always being so randomly cute and funny.. listening to me talk. being patient. and im really glad to have you as my furry friend! :) haha. ppl always have sooooo many nicknames for you. haha. especially hanger! butt. you'll forever be MY RACOON!! :) and ill be your otter! :) FOR MANY MANY LIGHTYEARS TO COME, racoon and otter would live in the river together! even if ice forms on the water, we can play underneath! and invent some kind of waterproof heater or something. okay. -_- haha. I LOVE YOU CHAR!! :)

glory my thick-filer- aww mans. i bet both our files have gone through an intensive slimming programme.. haha. gloryy i wont forget you. ahaha. your superbly sarcastic humour is a PERFECT match to mine!! haha always suan-ing pei hui together. and your hardworking attitude always kept me striving to work harder too!! you've been a really responsible friend. i know that i can always count on you. :) friends forever okay? i love you! :)

rach moaner- HEYY MOANER!! :) ill really miss the times when we just sat together and moaned about stuff together. haha the longg letters you used to write. we always shared emotions, feelings. :) ill always be there for you if you need or want me :) i promise. haha. i think now our friendship would be stronger. not easily broken. haha. it got threatened the one time when you know. but. i guess friendship means more than anything! :) lets stay moaners forever okay?? i love you moaner! :)

haha. there are many more people in sa that touched me in their own ways too. but seriously, there's too many to account for. but i hope that these people know that i appreciate them and that im glad they are a part of my life. :) every person that passed through my life, whether long or short. left a footprint on my heart. and ill never forget them in a hurry.

ookay. i got people to thank for outside of sa too. but lets leave that for another day yeah? this entry is tooo long. and i spent almost one hour plus typing this whole thing out. im tireddd. haha. later having a new year's eve bbq somemore. haha. ookay.

goodbye 2007!!! hello 2008! :)

MR CUTE HOTTIE!!!

2007-12-31T14:54:00.000+08:00

hmm. today is the last day of 2007.. tomorrow is a whole brand new year already. haha. lots of people write their thank-yous and everything on their blogs. so i guess i should do that too! :) but. haha. if i do that, ill become emo. so firstt, im gonna blog about happy stuff!!! haha. the exhilarating experience on sat!!!! MR CUTE HOTTIE!!! oh yeah. there is a difference between this and MR HOT CUTIE..

haha. went to clar's dance comp on sat.. first time i set foot into ngee ann poly. haha. the bus ride there was longgg. haha. me and cheryl and gillian were like half an hour late!! but ahh wells. the more impt ppl we came to see lucky haven danced yet. haha. it started at 11am. all the way to 6pm then got post-party. but we didnt stay till then. haha. ANYWAYS, as per normal, this is the 3rd year straight. HAHAHAHAHA. i saw... HIM!! goshhh. (okay. ppl who do not want to hear or see me swooning, please just skip the next 2 paragraphs) haha.

AS USUAL, he was ultimately hottt!!!! VERYY. SUPERBLY WOWW. hahahha. and cute too! andd he has a nice body. plus, his dancing rocks. haha. hes mr cute hottie number 2! haha. hes the first guy who can succeed g******* on my hot rating scale!!! :) :) :) oh yeahh. and he got first! :) its like when you spot him, everyone else turns black and white. HAHAHAHA. okay. and im not exaggerating!! i would scream his name if i wasnt scared that everyone would turn and look at me like im some sort of crazy fanatic. hahaha. and i think i would willingly go crazy over him rather than some other movie star. haha.

then when it was time for the team matches i think. HAHAHAHA. i nearly floated onto cloud nine. okay not nearly maybe i did. just that i didnt show it. haha. cause he was throwing stuff around to the audience. first he threw chocolate coins, it fell to my right. then he threw hongbaos, it fell to my left. haha. i was like okay never mind. i wont look like an idiot snatching those. hahaha. so i kept my cool and sat there. THEN!!!! hahahahaha. he threw this SINGLE paper aeroplane in my direction. i thought it was going to fly over me, so i just continued looking at the performance. whahahaha. it hit my leg and fell to the ground!!!!! GOSHHHH. haha. i almost couldnt help smiling widely and cheryl saw! hahahah. THEREFORE, i currently have a most favourite paper aeroplane in the world!!!! :)

okay enough swooning. :) but i guess this year is the last year ill see him dancing. cos clar stopping dancing for a while. haha.

but anyways, congrats clar on getting third!!! yay!! haha im proud of you. can see youre also very pleasantly surprised!!! :) good way to end it all i guess. :)

yeahh. okay my last post of 2007 up next!

4 more days to 2008!

2007-12-27T11:23:00.000+08:00

okay. christmas is gone and new year is coming. ill be finishing my job soon, by next monday. aahh. i really think working life dont really suit me. im better off studying!! haha. okay maybe office jobs dont suit me. -_- oh wells.

on christmas eve night, haha. went to my aunty's house to celebrate her birthday. the usual gathering. played dai di, got bullied and bullied people. TSK. haha am i that bullyable? okay dont answer. haha. NOBODY is always on my side :( haha. aah wells. realised that when you get a camera of your own, you start to like taking pictures and ALWAYS take pictures. haha. this is whats happening to me. tsk im not zi lian lor. but like ill always bring camera around then bu pai bai bu pai. haha. so pai lor. haha. but im lazy andd i dunno how to post pictures on my blog. haha. so go see my friendster if you want! anyway, stayed there till 2 plus in the morning. so reached home about 3 plus. wahh sehhhh TIRED LIKE CRAZY. haha. cause after one whole day of work then stay up till like that. nearly died. haha. i dozed off in the car and risked neck sprain!!! haha. tsk. wish i had a shoulder to sleep on. haha. rather than the slippery leather car seat. butt. the plus point is, i ate 2 cakes!!! yay!! and both is chocolate. AAAAHHH. haha. it was the first time in 18 years i ate a christmas log cake. haha. it was pretty though. :)

haha conked to bed when i reached home. then the next morning, woke up to meet shang to go for christmas celebrations in church. haha. almost couldnt wake up!!!! sat up in my bed like a zombie. haha. i was so certain i was going to doze off on the mrt. then what happened? very good. the christmas crowd of ppl on mrt. NO PLACE TO STAND PROPERLY. i was so sure that if i dozed off, ill either end up falling on the floor or causing a chain reaction of falls. haha. so i squeezed my way inwards towards the door then leaned on it and nap a while. THEN got this woman with super long hair stand near me and she keep flipping her hair. RAHHHHHHH.

anyways, went to expo. haha. yesss super far. its been like 2 years since i went that place. haha. the last time was to go and watch 5566 concert. NOT HI FIVE!! ( aah. say here also no use. haha. you dont read my blog anyways) haha. quote best friend's saying. THERE WAS AN EXODUS OF PEOPLE. hahaha. was scared ill get lost. tsk. i bet if i get left alone in that place within 3 mins, ill get lost. haha. anyways, i met lots of people!!! so happy!! haha. bel darling, CALISTA!! ( gosh. its been soo long. haha. still pretty! my mushu!!! hahahh.), BEST FRIEND!! (gosh. sooo fated. haha. next week best friend outing ahhh!! ahah) even gregory!! haha my cousin. ehh ehh. wide social circle ahh. haha. tsk. the person im supposed to say this to is on HOLIDAY.

the christmas play was quite funny! haha and touching. i teared. okay whats new? hahaha. oh wells. i think i like candles in the dark. its like hope and temporary escape from the real life. when the lights came back on, i know i have to face reality again. haha. thats why i always like night time. the darkness, the cool air, the quietness gives me relief and escape. HAHAHA. and yess. its emo time! hahaha. anyway, i think i need to go shopping soon. yes your eyes dont have problems, i said shopping. haha. i have a few things to buy anyway. and i wanna spend my voucher soon! hahha. hmm. next year bah. haha. next year always sounds far, BUT its only next week!!!! hahahah. after i finish my job, ill really go lots of places to enjoy and catch up!! i miss my life. haha.

sometimes you hold so tight,
it slips right through your hands,
will i ever understand?

whirlwind of emotions!!

2007-12-24T13:49:00.000+08:00

aahh yes. its CHRISTMAS EVE! and im working. isnt that wonderful? haha. im writing this during my lunch break cause today eat a bit too fast. haha. surprise ahh. haha. i spent 15 mins eating one plate of fried rice. woooo. thats like 45 mins faster than normal! haha. hmm. almost couldnt wake up today to go work. i feel really lazy. i just wanna curl on my bed and sleepppp.

anyways, haha. im 18!! haha. oh wells. had this small party at my house last sunday. tsk. i think everyone was more interested in the star awards lor. haha. but. yeahh. had some revelations. and ooh. im of clubbing age!! ahahha. FINALLY. then on my birthday, went out with hanger, bubbles and jia lin! hahah. ate at this jap place. tsk. so expensive. haha. the first restaurant we picked was worse. haha. until we had to walk out of the place after looking at the menu!! haha. so paisehhh. but yay, thanks for the cake that you 3 bought! haha. its SUPER CHOCOLATEY SWEET!! YAY. love you guys!! :) although i nearly died when there was no water. haha. :) then shopped with jia lin for a while. hmm. we saw this nice feature that got stairs then water below. i wished they opened that to the public!!! haha. its romantic ahh. haha.

on thursday, i went k box with joyce!! haha. the toa payoh one.wahh brings back loads of memories. haha. its been ages since i went there. at first, cause there was no small rooms left, they actually gave us one 20-people room. ehh damn cool!!!! haha. it was super big. and the sofas were soo long. haha. like can run about. and we were only 2 people. haha. was super excited laa. then the screen was huge. so we had to like stand in the middle of the room and sing. haha. it totally felt like we were having our own concert!!! woooo. haha. AND THEN, when we dian all the songs that we wanted, the person said excuse me, sorry but small rooms are available now then got big group coming. tsk :( i haven tried jumping on the sofas yet!!!!! aah. haha the downsize was super drastic. and it was SUPER COLDER. i conclude that all k box outlets should adjust their temperature. haha. i was wearing my sweatshirt then still super cold!! until the fingers were like frozen. and when i sms-ed, i couldnt even feel like i was pressing the buttons but then the message was still typed out. haha!

anyway, we sang until like nobody's business. haha. practiced xu yao ni de ai for veryyy long. ehh MS!! haha. i know how to sing the a xing part already!!! ahhaahha. DUET DUET!! i love that song! haha. its so sad and shi li pai at the same time. we sang for 5 and a half hours,it was the FIRST TIME i stopped singing because my voice really cannot strain anymore. ahahha. wah but super shiok! and value-for-money. haha. oh yeah. and we ate 7 bowls of peanuts!! whahahaha. ehh one bowl is compulsory 6 bucks la. with free refill. if eat only one bowl, is waste money right!!! hahha. but anyways, peanuts can provide energy. and we were super cold! haha. we sang FIR songs to get us hyped up. haha. then apparently the people in the room opposite to us also very cold!! haha. cause they started jumping around to gain warmth. haha. then me and joyce quite amused, so we stared for a while. then the people realised us. so they straight away scramble back to their seats then sit very straight! ahahaha very cute!!!!!

ooh then went my grandma house stay during the weekend. haha. as usual, had fun and laugh. and get bullied and insulted and did it back. haha. oh i watching huan huan ai! its niceeee. haha. i like the storyline. i think its better than e mo zai shen bian. oh wells. i realised that if im going to give tuition, haha. maybe primary school kids is a no no. i scared i lose patience! haha. aah. and the air con there is soo cold!! haha. i always catch a cold when i go there. had to pop some panadol cold relief pills before i was well enough to go out yesterday. haha.

ooh and yesterday. haha. went to mind cafe with shang and friends. ehh ehh first time go there. haha. its a cafe that can play board games too! remind me of t3 cube. except that its bigger. hmm. aha. played pictionary the whole time. haha but quite fun!!! hahahha. i never liked playing it before. cause my drawing sucks like crap. haha. then i always scared nobody understand. haha. but ehh ehh. people understand!! haha. wahh so satisfying. haha. :) everyone was friendly and nice. FOG! MOAT! HAHA. GOOSEBERRY!!! anyway, i think boat quay the atmosphere very nice!! haha. got water, plus when it rained. wah seh. romantic. haha. and yay. my ez link card is accumulating macdonalds points!! YAYYYY. hmm. one week more to the end of 2007. haha. the year with the largest whirlwind of emotions. haha.

oh yeahh. i calculated my BMI a few days ago. whahaa. its 18.7!! the healthy range is from 18-25. lalalala. im still super healthy ahh!! ahaha.

theres only so many tears that you can cry,
before it chases the light right from your eyes.
and i cant go on that way.

ironic...

2007-12-13T20:39:00.000+08:00

haha. im starting to enjoy my job! yay. haha. but its kinda ironic that normally, i dont really like to shop and i super dont keep up to date with shopping deals and cheap offers and whatever. actually its cos shopping must walk a lot and my legs are tooooo lazy. haha. BUT. my job now totally requires that. haha. but good! im not that mountain tortoise anymore. whahahaha. and i found out some super good deals! i am so gonna check it soon.

anyway, if you wanna check out good shopping deals, go www.shopping.sg!! hahhaah. yay.

oh. hmm. i hope sunday is gonna be fun. haha i wanna play twister! anyone got the mat? haha.

confused.

yay!!!

2007-12-09T22:11:00.000+08:00

YAYYYY. THANK GODDD!! ITS THE CHARGER THAT IS SPOILT!!! HAHA. WHAT ARE THE ODDS? :)

heartbroken.

2007-12-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

MY PHONE HAS BECOME NON-CHARGEABLE. SOO, I ONLY HAVE A LITTLE TIME LEFT BEFORE IT REALLY DIES. :( :( aaahhhh! i very sad!!!!

i cant bear to part with my phone!!! whyyyyy. :(

im sorry i always drop you, phone. :( maybe when i wake up tomorrow, im gonna find out its just a bad dream!!!! yeah right. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh. :(

i wanna save EVERYTHING to sim card!! why must it happen now?!

poor handsome..

2007-12-06T17:51:00.000+08:00

okay. i realised i haven blogged in more than one week. to think i thought that after a's i would blog everyday since i have the time. haha. but didnt want to stay at home most of the time so kept finding opportunities to go out! rahhh. until haha. im finally kinda sick. haiz. i had a super high fever 2 days ago. haha. my whole body was burning. haha. weirdly, i felt like i was drunk or something. haha. cos i kept blabbering nonsense.. lucky my mom was back when i was sick. i cant imagine being sick alone. cos that sucks.

anyway, been going out with lots of different people! haha. people that i havent met in a long time!! like 2 years!! woo, so happy. haha. EL family!!! enjoyed the catching up and everything. NOBODYS CHANGED A LOT LOR. haha. best friend and cousin! haha. go xiao zhu's concert. haha. screamed like crazy. and i was super scared of the girls in front and the guys behind us. haha! the girls in front were like AAAHHHH HE SO HANDSOME. then when they weren't picked to go on the stage, they grumbled super loudly!! uummm. its quite crazy fanatics. haha. WHILE. the guys behind were noisy and kinda kicked the chairs sometimes, i didnt dare to stare at them. haha! they look like the type who will get me involved in a gang fight or something. *shudders* haha.

but the concert went past really fast!! haha. 2 hours flew by. even faster than ling jun jie's concert. haha. so we spend the time waving lousy 5 bucks multi-coloured lightsticks. haha. poor best friend had a super cranky one. 5 mins into the show it died. haha. or sometimes reincarnated with faint light then died again. then after the show, when she on'ed it, it lighted up WONDERFULLY. haha! haha. i think waving that multi-coloured lightstick was kinda weird. haha! it made me feel like some kind of traffic police directing traffic. but it does look nice from afar with the lights off. haha.

hmm. oh yeah. and that night, when i got to bed. the screw on my specs came loose so i had to say goodbye to my loyal dunno how many years specs. haiz. i started wearing this pair of specs that i actually made 2 years ago but never tried wearing it cos i was too used to the old pair. okay. the change in degree made me SUPER giddy at first. but now not so bad. just im totally not used to it. so i always adjust it thinking i look weird. haha. PARANOID. maybe ill bring it down to the specs shop to get it fixed. WHEN I HAVE THE MONEY. :)

speaking of money, im starting work tomorrow!! goshh. my first day of corporate life. haha doing admin. i hope it will turn out well. 0_0 im kinda scared. haha. being the only kid there seems super strange.. yikes.

ohh yeah. i watched enchanted on tuesday!! haha with dave. i liked the movie. fairy-tale like but really fun and enjoyable. :) and i watched it at CINEI. yeahh. i ALWAYS go that place. haha. so i sort of promised myself i wont go there for a while!! ahhaa. and i need to shun away from k box for a while cos SORE THROAT!!! rahhhh! well. i became a member and apparently, it has benefits. hhaha! so MS! if you have any songs that cannot find, i can tell them and they will find! yay. maybe we will go again in JANUARY. when youre back. goshhhh.

I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

body workout!! :)

2007-11-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

WAHH. today is super satisfying work out. haha sort of. FINALLY in the morning, i crawled out of bed to go jogging. haha. but i think because already arrange with someone then like cannot go back on my word. haha! at 7am, i sat up in my bed then blur blur one. haha. went jogging at 8am! with david. haha. my NEW FRIEND! okay. not really totally new but cos never talk before this before, soo. haha. considered quite new bah. haha. anyway, due to the SUPER LACK of exercise since NAPFA ended, haha. i sucked like hell! hahha. so paiseh. jog a while then started breathing heavily. haha. *rolls eyes* looks like i really need to train up. haha.

anyway, after that went j8 to stock up my fridge and cupboard. haha. bought almost 30 dollars worth of titbits plus cake plus maggi mee. wahh craps. i think thats where i normally spend lots of my money on. haha. FOOD! crap. haha. anddd as usual, couldnt resist the calling of the arcade. haha. so i went. hmm. in the meantime, also cos waiting for best friend to come. haha. i played photohunt. and it sucked when you play alone!!! haha. cos one pair of eyes is totally not enough! haha. i died at stage 14. and when they showed the difference, me and best friend TOTALLY CANNOT see the difference, haha. thats unfair la!!!!

well yeah. i played the basketball machine. no surprise. haha. andd. yay!!! although some of my balls flew out, i actually broke my record!!! whoaaa!! haha. i got 389!! i was damn happy la!! haha. but my arms felt like they were about to drop off. haha. its hard exercise!!! haha. so i worked out my arms and legs today. haha. quite worth it ahh. just spend one buck and get a super good arm work out. whahahahaha. haha hanger!! whens our next challenge? whahaha.

i went to rent vcd too! yay. i found out got video ezy at j8. hidden inside. haha. its so gonna be my frequent hangout during this hols. COS if no one asks me out, ill curl up on my sofa and watch vcd's!!! haha. although its like 5 bucks per vcd rental. i guess its better than buying it. haha. dont ask me to watch on my com! i will get SUPER IRRITATED. haha. cause of the lovely connection that disconnects every so often. haha. anyway, i rented princess diaries 2! the royal engagement. haha. its nice!! i like the humour in the show. haha so my type! wittily funny. haha. aah wells. i wanted to rent CSI-MIAMI.but its super expensive cos its one whole series! haha. and although i really really wanna watch that. and criminal minds. haha. i couldnt bear to part with my money. haha. soo. too bad.

then best friend came my house and we watched high school musical 2!! haha. i think we are the only 2 ppl who really like HSM bah. haha. it was quite good! haha. in fact, i actually like this 2nd one more than the 1st one. i guess its cause its more realistic. i dunno why the ratings weren't that good. haha. cos i like it! hmm. haha. then heard the whole new luo zhi xiang album. ehh ehh. haha. the emo songs quite emo ahh. haha. i love wo bu hui chang ge. it is so gonna be my new fav emo k box song! hahaha. anyway, gonna go for his concert this sat. haha. so fast.

tomorrow is vcd day! haha. which means im gonna be a couch potato tomorrow! haha. cos nobody ask me out. :( hahah. hmm. next few days should be got programme. haha. oh wells. its gonna be december soon! the end of the year. haiz. another year going to be gone.

anyways, im gonna go sleep now. haha. im quite certain im gonna wake up tomorrow with aching limbs. but haha. lets see. maybe ill hope that my blood circulation removes the excess lactic acid present in my blood. haha. :)

i miss school.
i miss spotting you in the middle of everyone. :)

bye uniform days!!! :(

2007-11-23T11:44:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE UNIFORM DAYS!!! :( yupp. the a's are over! suddenly dont have to study the moment i reach home. it feels a bit weird. haha. suddenly like have so much time at hand to do whatever stuff. haha. i guess im gonna enjoy myself first. do all the stuff that i want to do. IN SINGAPORE. seeing as if IM NOT GOING OVERSEAS. haha.

oh wells. i always tell myself must wake up in the morning to go jogging. but haha. in the end, my bed always seem so comfy that i dont wanna get up. tsk. how??? haha. andd. i need money! haha. whole day go shopping. cos i got stuff i want to buy. eeyer. im still not liking shopping any bit better. haha. but i guess ill only get a job in january like that. now spend the remaining bit of this year catching up with friends and BONDING. hahahha. aah. when all my guy friends go army, aaahhh. gonna miss them like crap. haha.

aah dont care dont care. haha. going out in a while. yay! hmm. :)

2007-11-20T16:39:00.001+08:00

the delicate balance..